Day 1: 10 Years Later, what I learned from a broken friendship.
This blog started out as my Young Living personal journey. I think today it becomes much deeper than that. I said goodbye to my bestfriend of 10 years. Worse, I didn’t just say goodbye. I said “let me know the date and time you need the mattress. I’ll have it outside the door for you”. I feel speechless now mostly. Maybe I always knew deep down that our hearts aren’t the same. I tried to push those thoughts away and create a life long friendship. The truth is, I feel relief. I feel lighter. I won’t go in to depth on the drama, because that’s not the purpose of this post.
I realized when I broke off my longest and most memory filled friendship to date that I have grown so much in the past 10 years. Leaps and bounds you could say.
In ten years... I’ve learned to manage my depression and am working on my anxiety. I’ve met the man that I believe is my soul mate. I’ve become the big sister to two beautiful baby girls. I’ve made it to my senior year in college after changing schools twice. I adopted a beautiful kitty named Yang Ling Harper Carrigg. I’ve made two sisters who aren’t blood. I’ve moved 5 times just in the past three years.
Most importantly, I’ve learned that not everyone is meant to be in your life forever. Even the people you have beautiful memories with, who have been by your side for the past ten years. Sometimes no matter how much you love someone, you begin to see them as someone else entirely. A person so strongly rooted in their own feelings that they’re missing something so seemingly obvious to you. Something that saddens and bothers you to your very core.
At a certain point, you have to learn to walk away from people who feel toxic to your mental health. When your mental health is threatened, your dreams and goals are at stake. I have dreams and goals. I want to live for good karma and good vibes. I want to live a good life and build other people up. I want to look back and say that I surrounded myself in positivity. I need balance in my life.
I’ve never felt more confident about a more difficult issue. That’s not to say my heart isn’t sad, but if you feel good about something you go with it. You don’t ignore your gut. I’m proud of myself for standing up and I hope this inspires someone else to get out of a toxic relationship of any kind and continue to chase your dreams.
be the good in the world.