KKUM 21 ✨

I just got a dream. That dream, it was so nice. I hv a bf in that dream but I don't know who. At tht time, we n others people (*I don't remember who) went to mcd to buy burgers. We wait outside store. My bf drive an expensive car to mcd just to pick up me. Someone suggested tht we go somewhere else (aslo I don't remember). He parked the call n we go jalan2. Bila nk balik, he acquaintance someone tht he know n leave me behind. I was so annoyed n i left him n go back with others people. When he noticed tht, he tried to stop the car n paksa semua org keluar. Last, i said, ok i naik dgn u. And again, we in front of mcd waiting for his car. At that time, i terserempak with my old acquaintance. I tried to hid from them. My friend was good in photography so he was to take a picture of sitting down in front of mcd store. One of my old friend ask him to take a picture of them. Someone said, izzah, is tht u? N i toleh belakang m said yeah tht me. Kami semua borak n i left my bf behind. And woaps, i wake up already

It doesn't mean I don't feel it, it just tht i don't want to show it....it sucked, i hate it. That decision, it hard for me to do it. I take a long time to think over n over again. I wonder if i make a good decision. And yes, i still can't move on but i try. I try to learn my new circle. But now, why do i feel like u guys act like victims? n im a bad one....it is not like i never tell anything, i already give warning but u guys never took a srs to it...it is my fault? Ok, i know i make a rash decision n never discuss but then do u take srs about my feeling? Do u? That time what i was think tht why would i stay if i don't ever felt happy...i felt hurt, sad

Dia buat aku dlm kayangan lagi....terbiar dan tdk mengetahui arah tuju. Somehow i want to ask him, "do u still like me?" But I don't hv any courage to ask him....i sacred about how he will answer my question, i sacred if he said he still like me...what should i do or answer if he said tht he still like me.

I really happy today. Even in situation like this, they still make me wanna to cry. All of my friends wish me n even gave an essay, someone call me just to wish me, someone gave me voice mssg n she sing birthday song to me. I really appreciate all of that 😭 I don't even wish tht this will be so touched but here i so touched 🥺 What i like is, all my family even my cousins wish me 🥺 once, i had a dreamed about this but it really come true. I never expected to happen like this, it's so smooth. Sy sgt bersyukur sbb sy jumpa semua yg baik2, yg nasihat pd sy n i really can't even think if I don't know them. Thank you so much. I love u all ❤️

After 5 years, he came back. We contact again. I don't know what to say right now but i confused. I confused with myself. Did i still like him or not? He cared about me, he likes to disturb me at late night, like to do pickup line to me, he remembers about me after 5 years apart. Do he still likes me? All of my friends said tht he still hv feeling to me but i really don't know. Why r u so kind to me? I want to move on, i don't want to remember the past but then u just told all about our past. U stalk my social account, u act likes child when u call me. I just don't get it. I don't want to be hurt again bcs of love. I'm too afraid

I listen to BTS's song and that meaning really hit me and it give me courage to stay happy and be more confident and the most important thing is love yourself and don't care about other's talk. As we go through hardship either in studying or working, just keep in mind, that "hardship" gonna make us nearer to achieve success. So be confident, determination, positive and I think that will make us stronger than before 💖

As I age, I realize something. I always the one that be alone. You know, when i have my partner n then come another person, I rather walk alone. It is something that I always do. They have someone that they want to share or do anything, but I hmmm just being alone again. And now I prefer keep my problems then tell to others.

Happy Birthday to you, my dear. Good luck in ur study and be a good doctor. I really miss you and I really want to meet you. I'm too shy to say this to you but I love you so much. " What r doing right ? " " Are you busy ? " " Can we chat like we use to? " Omg I really want to send this to you but I'm too afraid...Lastly Happy Birthday again to you ♥️ 사랑해 생일 축하해

Can You Be My Doctor ?

I have been crush for you almost 5 years and it still counting. I'm thinking whether I should celebrate your birthday or not. I want to wish but I'm too shy. I'm afraid that you will be far away from me again. I want to confess for second time but I'm too afraid for what you will give the answer. Now I have so many pain and I don't know the cure for the pain. I have been looking for the cure but it is too difficult. I always hope that you will know my existence in your life. I want you to know my daily activities. I'm too afraid to lose you, my dear.

I hate being sick, sometimes it lead me to cry and disturb my feeling. It make me look so weak as I'm the weakest one. I tend to look stronger but initially I am just weak person.

He just to attractive. I'm so comfortable with him. He just too nice to me and he is the only one of my male best friend. He listens to my problem, he rise me to go higher and he also comfort me when i was in troubled. It hard to find male best friend because of different gender. I just so grateful that he is my best friend. I love u and I wish you goodluck in your future pak cik 🤭

My Sweet Talker

" hi r u online? r u busy right now? I want to tell u something. Can u stay by my side? Can u like me after what happen to us? Can u be a sweet talker to me like in the past? Can i be ur good friend? Are u reading right now? I miss u " if I could say it loud to you 😔

Are you blaming me? Do you forget what you have done to me? You ara such a fake friend..I'm never talking shit about you and you said I'm always talking shit about you. Do you ever realizes what you did to me? Waaa you are a very good actor right 😏 You already trow me went I was your friend, you treat me like I wasn't there and you just let me being alone all the time, when you do not have any friend then you start to find me. It took a many year to I forgive you. It really break my heart and now you want to take my friends? You like me being a lonely? Such a good friend are you 😏 and now you are blaming me for everything. I hope that you are gone from my life 

do you think you deserve to be happy after what you have done to me and my life?

I’m officially done trying. if you want me in your life,you can come find me. Until then, continue treating me like I don’t exist

I miss my happiness that used to be 😔.. happy with my friends, never hurt people, always smile, always together though in a difficult situation. But now in just one eye, everything has changed 😢 not together, always in a state of depression/in sadness, everyone will feel hurt and always fighting. It is hurt to see them crying in front of me, it feels like I'm hurting them. It's really breaks my heart 💔, it is okay for me to feel the hurt but pls I don't want them to feel the 'hurt' as the same way as me. Their loss give a very big effect for me because they are my everything in my life. I really hope that we are used to be like before, happy together and no one feel hurt...I'm hoping this will come true and if one of you wanna feels like crying then lets cry together 😌 " Sincere from my heart "

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