Another "dont be this fucking guy" post. Inebriation and drunkeness is never an excuse for disrespectful behavior.
Made a Instagram 4 who knows why 😅 wont be able to post certain pics 😤 lol.
Also Merry Christmas to every1! 💜💜
Gaming, butt stuff, or gaming while doing butt stuff and watching car shows (car porn)?
I like 2 separate my hobbies lol. Just personal preference 😅
Have you every had sex with any of your coworkers at the job you have now...? 😊🙊🤫
Nope, doesnt even cross my mind. We are all good friends and get along. I wouldn't have it any other way.
Don't be this guy 😬. Great way to get me to really dislike you 😑. Censored locations for their real privacy. Left the name cause fuck your online reputation if you have the capacity to think that way.
If i really want to hangout with someone they will know and i have done that. Don't be weird and force yourself into my life. You really think im gonna say hi to someone if they do that? Fuck off [/vent]
So you won’t be posting all of your most recent videos to your pornhub?!
They r already up, u can stop asking now 🤔
You were one of the first crossdressers that followed I wish you luck in the future your stuff's great by the way
Thanks i appreciate that, and best of luck to you in your own endeavors as well😊💜! I'll still be around but dunno in what capacity 😅
I'll figure somethin out i guess, just isnt a high priority right now since i only did what i do outta fun not financial gain in any means. The tumblr purge luckily isnt affecting my well being or quality of life, its just interesting to see it unfold as a spectator lol 😆
I’ve always wondered, you work with all of these amazing cars right? (The lambo to be specific!! My favorite!!!😍😍😊) But what kind of car do you drive?🤔
The classic underdog, keeps me humble lol. And another (first car) I wont disclose because reasons haha
Just wanted to say before everything is taken down that I always respected your cosplays most of all! They were always so good and inspired me a bit with my own costuming. I wish you happiness and luck in all you do in your future!
thank u, they were never supposed to be super serious or anything. Just somethin I did in private and figured I’d share with those who wanted to see. I dont claim to be cosplay pro by a longshot lol.
How are you liking Fallout 76?
It’s whatever, have only played it alone and it feels really barren n not in the good wasteland thematic kinda way
Fuck me. That was depressing, but it's how you feel. Hopefully you don't disappear but if you do it's been a pleasure. Good luck.
If my last post was depressing that was not my intention. Just the reality of my time on this wretched planet at that point in time. Doing this was not a sexual fetish for me ever, it was just me compensating for something I thought I lacked at the most fundamental level as an individual human being.
The next part will be depressing as I feel like the time is right to open up to those that have followed me vigilantly, regarding my struggles at least. So stop reading here if you don’t give a damn, and that is fine and your right lol.
I was never good with women. I tried. Oh I tried my best since puberty through college and wanted it to work. But it was never enough, I was never enough. I contemplated the fact that perhaps I was to be alone on this rock till my time came whenever that was. An online friend ended up telling me how I would make an “ok” or “decent” Trap/Girl because of my build and features. I ended up trying it out of desperation and received a positive reaction once I posted on Tranchan. It ended up with me losing my virginity to a guy I met online and never saw again. No hard feelings to them over that happening; just kind of sad in retrospect because of the lengths I went to to be accepted by anyone, female or male, just wanted someone.
I joined the Marines to “fix” myself, but a part of what I did before always stuck with me and never went away. At that point I felt trapped because I grew to feel comfortable however I presented myself, boy or girl, yet I was bound by military regulations and law to adhere to a certain presentation of myself. It was a rash and rushed decision going into the military that I regretted in the moment but no longer do as it truly made me stronger mentally.
In the moment though that was when I felt the lowest I ever did. I did not have the artificial acceptance of online entities anymore, I was alone except for one life friend which is my current girlfriend. She is the literal reason I am still here because she found me when I made the attempt to take my life. And I say attempt only because it was unsuccessful as she found me on the brink of death. There was no hesitation on my part in taking my life by the means I attempted. I would not be alive today if it wasn’t for her finding me on the verge of death.
I saw no light at the end of the tunnel, no heavenly disembodied voice or anything to make me feel at ease in my last moments. Only darkness. I woke in a hospital ER with her at my side crying. I was admitted into a medical facility and held over the next 72 hours. It felt like weeks. All around me I saw individuals with drug addiction to schizophrenia and multiple personality disorder etc you name it. It was then I decided to push through till the end of my military contract. The attempt I made on my life made no difference to my unit as far as releasing me from my contract, I was only chastised for doing so and they worked me harder. I did my time, picked up rank even, and was made offers to stay in the end despite what had happened as they seem to do.
I am now truthfully the happiest I ever been, no rationalizing or lying. Just honesty. I have the person I longed for, a great career and future. And the will power to go on till my time is up whenever that is. And I did it being my true self.
So where can we find you after the Tumblr Purge?
I just realized I have been asked this multiple times by various followers yet haven’t had the time to be on here recently.
I honestly don’t know if I will continue posting anywhere anymore. I may just fade away with the purge. Has nothing to do with what Tumblr is doing more so coincidentally interesting personal timing.
I’m getting older and can see it (definitely feel it lol), and I refuse to be a washed out torn up old looking whatever I am hahaha. Forever young I will stay online, only without the dying part lol. That is if I decide to fade away, I am undecided still.
I started doing this almost 10 years ago before the mainstream Trap phenomenon out of low self-esteem, loneliness, depression, and just plain seeking acceptance. Those were bad times, I even attempted to end my life because of how I was feeling deep depression as a result of many variables. In the end none of this Trap stuff helped or hurt me, I overcame my issues by growing up and sacking up without help from anyone. Now I feel none of what I initially did when I started, and have been continuing it as a recreation at admittedly subpar levels.
It’s only a thought I am considering. I have not found a website with a posting format/setup I like or can bare yet (that means you Chans, Reddit & Twitter lol) to “extend my stay” which only hurts my chances of staying “around” longer.
I apologize to everyone for the long winded answer. Just making this post count as it may be my last post ever for all I know as I am undecided and wanted to have an explanation for those who actually read what I posted all these years and the friends I have made. I thank you all, especially those that read this far. 💜💜💜
i ever wondered: Does Bowsette have a dick?
It’s the tail! hahaha
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