Hawks is getting the Reiner treatment
Hawks is getting the Reiner treatment
If there's an award for Love Brain Female Character, then,
Those Wife who run away from the CEO with the Baby
Those Women who are imprisoned and papapa everyday with her enemy
Those Women who sacrifices her whole family, clan, kingdom, for love,
All of them are pale in comparison...compared to Ymir Fritz.
After all, what she sacrificed for her love was the war casualties for 2,000 years,
The uncountable human turn into titans, and human eaten by titans,
Almost 90% of AOT's main characters.
...were sacrificed, due to her love brain😖😖
I know I shouldn't say this, but I really can't help but feel...awfully disappointed at the Titan's ancestor, Ymir's backstory.
I expected her to be an ancient woman who defied society using the power of the Titan, creating the glorious Eldia Empire. I expected her to be at least, a leader like a figure, a strong woman (mentally and physically)
I expected her to be some kind of similar to Historia...and yes, She did. Similar to the old Christa instead of the fascinating Historia however. A hypocrite who sacrificed and lived for others without caring about her own life. Fortunately, Christa later met Ymir and was told to live for her own. Otherwise, she will definitely be turned like the Ancestor Ymir who lived like a marionette to the King Frist I.
To think that the Ancestor Ymir, the tragedy lasting for 2,000 years was caused by her love brain toward the tyrannical King Frist I, is just so....painfully lamentable.
She was really a patient of Stockholm syndrome. Perhaps, a protagonist of a badly written smut tragedy web novel out there. Someone who fell in love with a King who killed her fellow villagers, turned her into a slave, falsely accused her of unfair crime and almost killed her (if not for her encountering the Devil and was granted a Titan power to continue to live).
Yet after being freed and gain a power to survive on her own, she submitted herself to the said King Frist, slaughtered another Kingdom for the King, and was forced to give birth to several children for him. Later, she died to protect him, even after death, was still enslaved to grant the Titan power to the Royal descendants, supporting them to continue the slaughter and Eldia tyranny for the next 2,000 years, resulting in the never ending war, resulting in the Eldia oppression in the future, resulting to Eren having to slaughter 80% of the population to solve the problem and becoming the common enemy so that the world can be unified.
...all was because Ancestor Ymir was in love with the King Frist I.
Like...WTH, girl! Your love hurt and harm the whole world for millennium!
I am extremely disappointed.
Isayama sensei, why did you have to make her backstory this way????
Attack on Titan Manga Ending Spoilers Below
Now that I have sat and processed the final chapter of Attack on Titan for almost a year, this is how I perceived the ending (Chp. 139).
Eren had no choice but to commit the act of the Rumbling, even though he knew the Rumbling was wrong and knew that by committing such an abysmal act, Mikasa would be pushed far enough and come to the realization that she has to be the one to kill him (Eren learning this from the paths and Ymir Fritz), thus finally ending the 2,000 year-long curse that Ymir was under. Eren sacrificed himself in order to obtain freedom for his friends and their futures (freedom being freed from being subjects of ymir, as well as titans).
The curse of Ymir being her tied to her abusive and vile "lover", Karl Fritz. Mikasa, being tied to Eren (by love, not slavery- as some argue, which is revolting) and being able to kill her lover (and separate herself from him), Ymir is moved by Mikasa's resolve and is able to free herself from the curse under Karl Fritz.
By ending the curse, the reign of titans ends as well, since Ymir is no longer there to abide by the king's will, and won't be producing any more titans.
But it makes me question the boy finding the tree (Is that Eren's grave tree?) on the final page. Like is it supposed to symbolize that the titan curse was never eradicated?
How would that even be possible? With Ymir gone, no titans can be created. So? I'm not sure what Isayama is trying to convey there.
I refuse to ask twitter. there are so many toxic genocide stans there and just so many who don't understand the themes and bones of the story.
Have you read Attack of Titan? If so what do you think of the ending?
I remain conflicted about the ending. I really have to read the entire story again in one go to really flesh out my thoughts and solidify my opinion, it’s been a long time since I read the earliest chapters, and I haven’t read it again since the final chapter came out. So these are my thoughts after not having read it in a year and only reading it once.
I’m torn between loving and hating it. The second to last chapter? My friend called me about something unrelated and I wound up talking his ear off for over an hour straight explaining the entire plot of Attack on Titan to him, and I kind of sent him into a mini existential crisis. Like, I finished talking, and he immediately ended the call to go and lie down.
I kind of wanted everyone to stay as pure titans. It was so fucking raw and real seeing Annie about to reunite with her father, finally, only to be denied that moment. All of our main cast we’ve been with since the beginning? Titans. It was incredible. I didn’t know how it was going to end, but I was here for it.
And then. The final chapter happened.
I loved his conversation with Armin.
I loved this moment. He just breaks character and shows that whiny pathetic 19 year old kid that he is. It was so human. Beautiful.
And then they’re not titans anymore...
I was under the impression that the titans the Elidian empire had, besides the 9, were of regular Eldian subjects, forced against their will to become pure titans, as they’re all beholden to the will of the Founding Titan of royal blood.
And that like. The colossal titans in the walls were ordinary Eldian citizens who’d been sacrificed to make the walls and protect those inside and act as a deterrent from the rest of the world. But there weren’t people in the colossal wall titans????????????????
How the fuck did Mikasa get back????????????????
It just left me with so many questions and I don’t know if they were answered or not, and I was probably mistaken on some details and that’s why I was so ???????????????????????????? About it.
But yeah, I really need to go back through the entire manga to work it all out. Reading other people’s analyses only goes so far when you’ve still got to familiarize yourself with the source material.
I loved it and I hated it.
I really wanted Isayama to kill everybody and for Eren to be alone in a world of his own making. Something like that. It felt cheap that everybody got untitan-ed.
Especially with those added pages and the fucking tree and having to hear reports of a spin off or something????????????
And there’s the whole time loop thing. Clearly I love me some time travel, but I have to go back and work out if it really works out. I feel like it does, but I don’t remember.
The bird Eren memes are fucking hilarious tho.
can we appreciate how Levi softens his look when he looks at Petra? 😭 always a nice detail from isayama is how Levi is always soft around her, that’s really cute
Petra def has a good spot in his heart and I don’t think you can argue with that because it is canon 😅
I have feeling Cabin Eren will be my demise when he is animated
art by @/satsuki_llab on twitter
I always wake up to my brother sending me the wildest things and tbh
...But you know what I'd argue that armin would too. He quite literally THANKED Eren for commiting mass genocide at the end and I was actually so disappointed in Armin because I loved him for the fact that he'd do just about anything NOT to have to kill people in the beginning.
also isn't Armins whole thing being a master manipulator
I MEAN THE WHOLE THING IS A JOKE BUT
Erwinnnn for Character bingo please :3
Mia! Okay just to be clear he's still your husband! <3 (spoilers?)
Oh soo close! OP made it very hard to get bingo!
Erwin be a nice looking man, and modern day would make an amazing husband! The most romantic evenings, so classy, the best dressed couple anywhere, very respectful.
In canon I'd be terrified of whatever plan he's coming up with next cause someone's not making it out LOL This is why I cannot X has never done anything wrong...I know things were always for a reason but... (my opinion people!)
For the time he's in the series, he did have a good amount of screen time. Granted we'd never think it was enough! And man, just think if Levi kept him around instead. IDK how things would've been different but that would have completely changed things!
I almost want them to make an AU where Erwin becomes a titan just to see the decisions that would have been made.
BEST FRIEND SASHA FOR THE BINGO GAME!!!!! HEHE 💕
- Rei <3 @levi-supreme
Rei!! Ohh bestie Sasha! (not spoiler free!)
I didn't realize she was getting a bingo until it happened! I love Sasha so much! I had to look up blorbo haha
She is the extrovert to my introvert! I want to protect her from bad things. Since bestie is not an option up there marry is just fine. We would make it work!
Even though I love Sasha on her own, she and Connie always worked well together. She's a team player.
I can't say wasted potential really because originally she was supposed to leave us much earlier than she did. And as angry as we were to lose her, that really progressed the story more so, she wasn't wasted. But that doesn't mean I don't want more scenes with her! More flashbacks!!
And I'm not including stealing meat as doing anything wrong. It was close but, she gets a pass!
okay fine here's an actual serious drawing
you wouldn’t think this kind of claim would controversial in the fandom, however attack on titan is a gateway to hell, apparently.
coming Wednesday 🤭
“‘M sorry y/n, I really am.” Vince stood in between my legs with his head resting on my shoulder. “You know I didn’t mean anything I said to you last night, or at school. Right? You know I love you baby.” He lifted his head up and stood up straight. “You’re really pretty.” He slid his hand on my left cheek. He leaned in and stopped inches from my face a smile formed on his face before, he turned to the left a bit and pulled my shirt collar down to kiss my neck. His right hand rested on my chest while his left went in between my legs. He pulled his head away from my neck again and leaned into kiss me. I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him in closer as his hand slid into my panties.
wattpad book: HIGH (WIP)
Unpopular Opinion: AOT addition
I’m not so sure that Levi has OCD. Yes Levi does have a need to keep everything clean, but OCD is more than “aaaaa must clean everything.” Just like ADHD is more than “I want to do this and this and- squirrel.” Both of those are based on stereotypes, and while they can sometimes be true, they aren’t a good way to tell if someone is or isn’t those things
OCD means obsessive compulsive disorder. And it’s characterized usually by the NEED to fulfill a certain action or do it a certain number of times. Now I cannot fully speak to it, but anyone I’ve known who has it has described it in a similar way. The NEED to do a certain thing a certain way or at a certain time.
Yes, Levi does appear to have a fixation on cleaning. And I can’t fully say if he has OCD or not because Levi appears to be a closely guarded person so it’s hard to tell. But if he did have OCD it’s kinda odd that only one compulsion appears in full force and we don’t see many others on that scale. Again, it may be different for each person but I have another theory
It has been said before that part of why Levi cleans is because of his childhood in the underground, and living in an unclean environment. That implies that he DEVELOPED the need to clean along the way. It is possible that it became a compulsion as a result of that, but that’s not the most plausible theory in my mind
Honestly I think Levi seems to obsess over cleaning because he has trauma related to unclean environments. He saw his mother die as a child, completely waste away in front of him, and lived a large part of his life underground in dust and dirt. I doubt he wants to be reminded of that. I think cleaning is what he does for a sense of comfort. To remind himself that he isn’t back in the room where his mother died, that he isn’t in the underground anymore
Idk, I just think unclean environments being a trigger for him makes sense. And even if he does have OCD, the way I’ve seen the fandom portray it can feel a little stereotypical
the aforepromised AOT analysis taken from my too-long tags:
There are certain characters who - had they been introduced as protagonists rather than villains - would have been beloved by their strongest haters. not because those haters would’ve excused their actions, but because their victimhood would’ve been the first thought, and not the afterthought. i am speaking of the Warriors once again. i feel it is important to note that, while Reiner may have had the mental breakdown, they were all raised under dysfunctional - perhaps traumatic - circumstances before they ever joined the Warrior program. especially Annie. holy crap let’s look at Annie for a second.
> born outside the internment zone. > discovered to be half-Eldian. promptly abandoned to the internment zone. > found by a bitter opportunist who abuses her from infancy into becoming the perfect human weapon. > one day, she cracks and beats him so badly she permanently cripples him. this makes him HAPPY because it means he’d succeeded. super normal response. > she is enlisted into the child soldiers program where the brainwashing gets cranked up x3000. she makes no friends and kills critters for...leisure? existential dread? > is forced to EAT A PERSON at 11 years old. at which point she knows she will die in 13 years. > is sent on a deadly mission at 11 YEARS OLD to eat MORE PEOPLE. as she’s leaving, her ‘father’ repents and begs her to come back. crying, she instantly forgives him, because obviously she is a child and this is the only parent she has ever known or wanted. but now she HAS to complete the mission because if she FAILS, she gets EATEN and her father gets KILLED. > on the mission, Annie watches as their leader (also a child) gets EATEN. she lashes out against Reiner in exactly the same brutal way she did her father. > when she tries to quit the operation, Reiner strangles her into submission. > Improvising without Marcel, Annie then transports Reiner and Bertholdt all the way to the Wall, at which point, she passes out from sheer exhaustion, and entirely misses Reiner and Bertholdt committing what is essentially a terrorist attack the likes of which we have never seen. an act of war and a mass slaughter.
> then, Annie assimilates into this society of monstrous devils who, to her horror, turn out to be merely frightened people. (this is the first place she makes a friend in her entire short life.) > Annie proceeds to complete ALL the mission reconnaissance herself, until she accidentally reveals her face to Kenny Ackerman. she tries to persuade Reiner to take the intel she’s acquired back to Marley, but he insists they must complete the mission if they want to live. > so, at age 15, Reiner & Bertholdt REPEAT the initial slaughter. > after Annie rescues Connie from a titan, Reiner essentially threatens to accuse her father of being a Paradis sympathizer unless she takes Marco’s 3DMG off him. > Marco begs her for mercy the whole time, and she cries as she sentences him to an agonizing death. > this is when she realizes Reiner has lost his mind. and maybe she will, too. > it falls to her to capture the Attack Titan. if she can do so, she will be allowed to return to her father. she jeopardizes this mission by sparing Armin’s life, not once, but twice. > she locates Eren (her first friend, the only person who’s made her genuinely smile) and, in her Titan form, decapitates his Titan with her bare hands. > she has killed everyone in her path, but she ultimately fails to take Eren, and cries when she realizes it was all in vain. remember, she is fifteen. > she is then tricked, cornered, and exposed by the last person she would've wanted to do so. the only person who’d ever called her kind, and the very person she'd made the mistake of sparing before. > in a fight she didn’t initiate, she accidentally crushes innocent churchgoers. this the first and only time she personally kills civilians, and it horrifies her. > she fails to capture Eren again. she fails a desperate escape attempt. > crying, she self-induces an indefinite coma on the off-chance she may be able to one day return to her father, knowing she only has 9 years left to live anyway. > is actually awake the entire time, and can hear everything being said and done around her - including the silence - for four years. she is trapped not only in the crystal, but in her own mind, with her own guilt, for four years. her peers have spent them growing acquainted with relative freedom, themselves, and the rest of the world. but she is physically and experientially still 15, never having known anything but her mission and the internment zone. > she is forcibly de-crystallized into the middle of the Apocalypse. she has 5 years left to live. her father is dead.
So I dunno, maybe we shouldn’t be surprised when she says things a psychopath would say. maybe we shouldn’t be surprised that she single-mindedly clings to the one piece of human affection her 11-year old mind internalized. Maybe we shouldn’t be surprised when she behaves erratically or brutally while still seeming like a child at times. by all accounts, she ought to be way more messed up than she is. but Armin was right. in spite of her upbringing, in spite of her brainwashing, in spite of her mission, in spite of the world, Annie wants to be a kind person.
Hange's introduction chapter in No regrets was titled Hearts and Levi's last words to Hange contained Hearts..Hange was his heart.
Summary: Life is full of unexpected surprises.
Word Count: 10.8K
Warnings: Racism (Eldian/Marleyan), Angst, Cuss/Degrading Words, Mental Health Issues, Intent to Kill, Violence, etc.
(A/N): The long awaited chapter is here. I’m so sorry it took so long. College, work, life, you know the usual. Anyway, I just wanted this chapter to be perfect. Hope you enjoy this long chapter! Remember, I don’t own anything!
“Gabi! This is only practice. Falco isn’t actually your enemy!”
(Y/N) watched her students complete their training of the day. Hand-to-hand combat with bolt-action rifles with the standard-issue knife as the bayonet. Luckily, the weapons were only a practice replica for the children to use. But (Y/N) noticed that one child in particular was taking this way too seriously than the rest of the class.
Gabi looked back at her and smiled apologetically. “Sorry! I can’t help that I’m that good!”
(Y/N) raised an eyebrow at Gabi’s response before shaking her head and letting the pair continue practicing. The girl would always show her worth every time they were to be graded. She raised her clipboard and began writing down her assessment. For the past couple of months, (Y/N) noticed vast improvement in all her students. From hand-to-hand combat, emergency medical services, and even marksmanship, each one of her students have all come a long way since the beginning.
“Mama? Can I train too?”
(Y/N) stopped writing and looked down at her son who was latched onto her leg. She didn’t miss the look of wonder on his face as she knelt down to his height.
“Oh, Kaito… You’re still too young to learn all this.” (Y/N) tried to reason with him as she ran her hand through his hair. When she saw his pout, she gave him a kiss on his cheek. “Maybe when you get older.”
“Can Papa teach me?”
(Y/N) sighed at her son’s innocent question. It wasn’t the first time Kaito asked about his father. Nor was it his first time asking to join training. Usually, Kaito wouldn’t even be here with her at work as he would be with Zeke’s grandparents. But today, her in-laws had to go to a doctor’s appointment and (Y/N) didn’t want to bother them. So with no other choice, she brought her son to work. It was a nice feeling to have Kaito around, making sure he was safe and it seems that he enjoyed his time with her as well.
“You’ll have to ask him when he comes back, love.” (Y/N) said as she stood up and continued to mark down grades. “Now please go sit back down at the bench.”
Kaito stomped his feet. “But I’m bored!”
“I promise we’re almost done, Kaito. Just be patient. Go sit back down.”
(Y/N) watched her son walk back to the bench. His stuffed toy monkey was the only thing that kept him company. She smiled fondly at her son as he interacted with his toy. He was growing up so fast.
“Your son is a little whippersnapper, isn’t he?”
(Y/N) looked over her shoulder and immediately stood up straight. She raised up her right hand while her left one stayed stiffly by her side. Different from Paradis’ salute, (Y/N) couldn’t help but find the Marleyan salute uncomfortable and a bit odd which is why she tried not to do it as much. However when a high-ranking general from the Marleyan Army was right behind her, (Y/N) had no other choice but to look presentable.
“General Calvi. It’s nice to see you, sir.”
The general looked at her with a bored expression. “At ease, Ackerman. Oh wait, it's Jaeger now, isn’t it? You’ve been married for… three years.”
“Almost four years in a few months, sir.”
“Ah, that’s right. The years always slip by without me noticing. I bet it’s the same thing for you as well… Raising your son on your own and all with this war going on.”
“Oh well… Kaito is a good son. He doesn’t cause trouble and Zeke’s grandparents are a huge help.”
“He reminds me of my own son when he was that age. So young and impressionable, wouldn’t you say?”
“Yes, sir. Kaito has certainly shown interest in training recently. Just a moment ago, he asked if he could partake in today’s training.”
“Really?” Calvi turned to look at her. “If he’s anything like Zeke, then he is destined to do great things.”
(Y/N) smiled at the general not knowing what else to say to the man. Of course, she has heard about General Calvi before but this is the first time she actually met him. She was glad to finally have a face to go with the name, but she had to know why a general like Calvi was here.
“General, if you don’t mind me asking, why are you here?”
Calvi let out a tired sigh before looking back at the several warrior candidates. His eyes looked at every candidate with an unimpressed look on his face.
“I’m sure you heard about the recent conflict at Fort Slava.”
Yes I have,” (Y/N) watched as Gabi once again pinned Falco down. “I read it in the newspaper this morning. The battle will prove to be difficult for Marley to overcome.”
“Do you have no faith in the motherland?”
(Y/N) gripped the pen in her hand tighter. She told herself to calm down before choosing her words carefully. “I do have faith in Marley but from what I heard the Mid-East Allied forces have technology that would rival Marley’s Titans. Unless Marley has some sort of plan in mind, then I’m afraid victory won’t be ours. Our worst case scenario is losing a warrior.”
“You’re as perspective as I’ve heard but then again you would know that, wouldn’t you?”
“You were once the enemy a few years ago. In fact, your devil comrades have taken two of our Titans. Those of which could be beneficial to us in this long war.”
“Yes… I suppose you’re right.” (Y/N) admitted though the next words that came out of her mouth were uncensored. “But this war wouldn’t have happened if Marley didn’t lose the Female and Colossal Titan in the first place. When the Mid-East forces heard about your losses, they saw their opportunity to attack. And why wouldn’t they? If the island devils could beat Marley then it should be no problem for a technologically advanced nation such as themselves. But what do I know? I'm just a devil from that island.”
Calvi only stared at the woman in shock. No one, besides his wife, has ever stood up to him before. His high authority and Marleyan status usually gave him a sense of superiority especially over Eldian devils. But this woman? She wasn’t like everyone else. It was actually refreshing, so refreshing that the general let out a small chuckle
“You certainly aren’t afraid to speak your mind.” Calvi said as he placed his hand over his mouth, trying to recover his stoic personality. “I can see why our own Boy Wonder fell for you.”
(Y/N) looked away from her students to the general beside her. The mention of Zeke made her miss him all over again. How long will she see him again?
“Sir, do you know how Zeke is? I haven’t received any news from him.”
“He’s still alive when I saw him a week ago.”
“How is he? Is he alright?”
Calvi smiled down at the woman. Though she tried not to look like the typical worried wife, she cannot hide the anxiety in her voice.
“He appeared fine. A bit ragged looking but that’s what war does to a person.”
(Y/N) let out a sigh of relief. She took a glance at the gold band around her finger. He’s still alive. “Thank you, sir… for letting me know. My son and I appreciate it.”
“Speaking of which, your son has joined in your training lesson with the other children.”
(Y/N) looked in the direction at the bench where her son was sitting. The only thing there was his stuffed toy monkey. But before she could panic, she saw her son right next to Udo and Zofia. A thin piece of wood was in his hands as he tried to copy Zofia’s movements of her weapon. The scene in front of her was just so adorable that it melted (Y/N)’s heart.
“I suppose he has…” (Y/N) commented, her eyes never leaving her son’s form. “I’m sorry. I’ll go tell him to go sit back down.”
“No, no. Let him play around. He should enjoy his childhood while he can.” Then he looked at the children in front of him with a serious expression on his face once again. “Now, then, your students have improved but if you have to choose… Which four are the best of the best?”
(Y/N) glanced up at the general before looking back at her students. She didn’t have to waste another minute before answering Calvi’s question.
“In my opinion, Gabi Braun, Falco Grice, Udo Bock, and Zofia Reitsch. Those four are the top students of my class.”
(Y/N) gestured to each student when she said their names. She didn’t miss the gleam in his eyes.
“Yes,” Calvi watched the four mentioned warrior candidates. “They are more outstanding than the rest of the class. They’ll do well learning in the real world. I guess it’s decided then.”
“What do you mean, sir?”
Instead of answering her question, Calvi brought out an envelope from his uniform and gave it to (Y/N). He watched her open up the envelope and read the document that was enclosed inside.
“This… T-This is a joke.” (Y/N) outright glared at the older man. “I can’t go to war!”
“You have an obligation to the motherland, Eldian. I thought you would jump at the opportunity to atone for your sins.”
“I have a son!” (Y/N) hissed, not wanting to make a scene in front of her students. “He’s not even three years old and you want me to leave him?!”
“It’s the least you can do,” Calvi retorted. “Many Eldian soldiers left their loved ones to serve and fight for Marley. Why should you be any different? And even if something happened to you, your son would recognize your sacrifice.”
“General Calvi, please understand-”
(Y/N) stopped talking when the general raised up his hand. Once silenced, Calvi brought out four more envelopes and gave it to her.
“Make sure to give these documents to the four students you mentioned earlier.” Calvi explained to her. “We leave by the end of the month. I want those students to be at their best when we leave.”
“You want children to go to war?”
Calvi let out a chuckle. “They aren’t just children. They’re warrior candidates. This will be an excellent test for them to use their skills that they’ve learned. You and Magath will watch them and provide your verdict on which one of those four should be the next successor of the Armored Titan.”
“But Reiner still has a few more years, doesn’t he?”
“It’s just a precaution and since we’re on the subject of precaution, I suggest you find someone to take care of your son. I heard that Zeke’s grandparents, specifically his grandfather, isn’t doing too well.”
“I just came from the hospital and I heard from the doctors that Mr. Jaeger is slowly losing it up here.” Calvi tapped his temple. “Oh well, it was only a matter of time. That old man has been through enough. Losing both children like that. It would make any person lose their mind.”
(Y/N) felt her heart sink a little. Mr. Jaeger was a kind man. Sure, he was a bit… reserved but she never thought it was a problem especially when Kaito was around. The young boy brought so much happiness into his great-grandparents’ lives. But after hearing the news about Mr. Jaeger’s mental condition, (Y/N) had to find someone else to take care of her son. Someone she can trust… but who?
“At least you have two week to find a babysitter.” General Calvi tried to comfort her but failed miserably. “It was nice to meet you, Mrs. Jaeger. I hope with your skills as well as your students’ we can end this war.”
The general faced her and shook her hand before leaving the courtyard. (Y/N) looked down at her hands. The four envelopes felt heavier when she looked back at Gabi, Falco, Udo, and Zofia.
“That’s enough for today! Gabi, Falco, Udo, and Zofia please remain where you are. Everyone else is dismissed!”
“Am I dreaming?!”
“Are you serious, Mrs. Jaeger?!”
“I can’t wait to tell my parents!”
“All our hard work has paid off!”
(Y/N) watched her students become excited at their summons of war, much to her dismay. She readjusted her hold on Kaito who was getting a little fussy by the minute. She offered some words of comfort to her son assuring him that they’ll be home soon.
The young mother looked back at the four young children who were beyond excited about their involvement in the war. Though she felt some guilt, (Y/N) was still proud of Gabi, Falco, Udo, and Zofia for getting stronger and hopefully-just hopefully- they’ll return home alive.
“Alright, everyone, listen up.” (Y/N) brought their attention to her. “I told General Calvi that you four are my best students which is why you have been selected to come with me to Fort Slava. Make sure to tell your parents or guardians. We leave in two weeks. You’re all dismissed.”
As (Y/N) turned around to walk towards the exit she felt multiple arms wrapped around her waist. She let out a surprised gasp at the impact before looking down.
“What are you four doing?”
“We’re hugging you!” Gabi exclaimed as she wrapped her arms harder. “Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!”
The other three voiced their thanks as well. Even Kaito, who didn’t really understand what was going on, hugged his mother. His small arms wrapped around (Y/N)’s neck.
“Mama is mine!” Kaito pouted, squishing his cheeks to (Y/N)’s. The young woman smiled at her son and students. She kissed Kaito’s cheek and with her free hand she gave the children an affectionate gesture in the form of a simple pat on their heads.
“Just thank me by doing your best on the battlefield. You four were my first students before the war and I’ve seen each and every one of you improve so much. As your teacher, I’m very proud of how far you all have come. I don’t want to find replacements for any of you so please…Come back alive. Promise me.”
“Good. Now go home and share the news with your families.”
(Y/N) and Kaito waved the four children goodbye before making their way home. But of course, their journey home was always full of surprises. Before she could take another step, (Y/N) made sure that hers and Kaito’s armband was securely placed on their left arms. Once she was sure, the young mother made her way through the small marketplace.
“Mama, what are we doing here?”
“We need to buy some ingredients for dinner, love. It’ll be quick.”
(Y/N)’s heart almost broke at the sight of her son’s sad face. Kaito quickly buried his face into his mother’s neck.
“Oh, Kaito,” (Y/N) brought her hand to ruffle her son’s hair. “It’s going to be okay. I won’t let anything bad happen to you.”
“That’s right and since you behaved today I’ll make you your favorite for dinner tonight.”
Kaito perked up at the possibility before muttering a soft okay. (Y/N) kissed his forehead whispering an I love you to him before making her way to the nearby stall that sells poultry. The middle-aged man there looked up at his new customer. It always amazes (Y/N) how a person could go from nice to horrible in a matter of seconds. Even when the man is an Eldian just like herself.
“Sorry, I’m closed.” The owner announced as he got up and began to put away his items. “Now, scram!”
(Y/N) rolled her eyes. This happens every time. Usually, it doesn’t bother her but after receiving the news from General Calvi, (Y/N) wasn’t taking this man’s nonsense.
“Look,” (Y/N) placed the money on the table. “I just need to get a few things for dinner and I’ll be on my way. Please.”
The man glared at her but his eyes shifted towards the money. He glared one more time at the woman and child in front of his stall before swiping the money. He counted the bills and (Y/N) scoffed. What good would it do her if she tried to scam him?
“Alright, but hurry up. I’m a busy man, you know.”
(Y/N) rolled her eyes but made no comment. She could feel Kaito grip her uniform tighter as he hid his face in her neck.
“Kaito, I need to set you down for a minute. Just stand next to me. Alright?”
The young mother crouched down and placed her son’s feet on the ground. Giving him a kiss on his forehead, (Y/N) began to pick out the necessary ingredient she needed for tonight’s dinner. Meanwhile, Kaito stood close to his mother, not wanting to stand too far away from her. He played with his toy monkey for a bit until he felt someone staring at him.
The toddler looked around, trying to find the person. It wasn’t difficult as Kaito found the person almost immediately. It was a man. A man that looked older than his father. He was wearing a dark coat with the familiar red armband over his arm. When the two made eye contact, the man waved at Kaito and began walking towards him.
Kaito took a step back and latched onto his mother’s leg. “Mama, can we go? Please!”
(Y/N) looked down and noticed the nervous tone her son was using. “What wrong Kaito?”
“The scary man is coming!” Kaito pointed out on the street.
(Y/N) looked around but she didn’t see anyone fitting Kaito’s description of a scary man. Though (Y/N) knew her son well. He wasn’t one to make things up and the look in his eyes… It broke her heart to see her son this scared.
“I don’t see anyone, love.”
“But…” Kaito pouted. He could feel the tears welling up in his eyes at the very notion of his mother not believing a word he says. He swore that the strange man was there. It wasn’t his imagination.
“Come here, love,” The young boy sniffed and stepped into his mother’s open arms. One arm lifted him up to her height while the other rubbed his back in a gentle manner. “It’s okay. Everything is going to be okay.”
As (Y/N) continued to reassure her son, she looked around once more for the strange man. No one around looked suspicious as everyone around her looked preoccupied with their own business. The mother looked back at her son, giving him a kiss on his temple.
“Let’s go home, yeah?” She asked the child as she swept his (H/C) hair away from his tear-filled eyes.
“Mm-hmm.” Kaito nodded into her neck.
The mother and son made their way home, the child practically never showing any signs of letting go of his mother’s warm embrace. After a moment, Kaito’s soft cries turned into sniffles and hiccups as he began to calm down. And once arriving in their quiet neighborhood, Kaito felt better when he noticed they were almost home.
But that sense of comfort was washed away when Kaito felt the familiar eerie feeling from before. Clutching his toy monkey tighter and mustering every drop of courage he had, Kaito peered over his mother’s shoulder.
(Y/N) felt Kaito’s body stiffen and before she could ask what was wrong he spoke, “Mama, he’s behind us.”
She didn’t react. She couldn’t. She needed to maintain calm and collected, especially when Kaito needed her.
“Everything is going to be okay, Kaito.” (Y/N) whispered to her son, leaving a chaste kiss on his forehead. “I won’t let anything bad happen to you.”
Hearing her words, Kaito nodded. (Y/N) continued to walk at a steady pace. Their home was just around the corner. She hasn’t even seen the man yet but she knew he was still following them. He was so close that she could hear his footsteps. They sounded strange-uneven to say the least.
As soon as she saw the familiar corner, (Y/N) quickened her pace and made a sharp left passed the corner. She then stopped walking as she waited for the man to appear around the corner. She listened to the uneven footsteps coming closer with each passing second.
His shadow came into view… Then his cane?
“Who are you?” (Y/N) demanded the stranger. “Why are you following us?”
The man fitted Kaito’s description. He definitely looked scary with that serious expression on his face. She noted that the man was older than her. His eyes met hers; they looked tired but determined. She also noticed the red armband on his left arm as well as the cane in his hand.
“Are you (Y/N) Ackerman?” The man asked, completely ignoring her questions.
“... I am.” She readjusted Kaito away from the man. “Though, it’s Jaeger now… Answer my question… Who are you?”
“Please forgive me,” The man removed his cap and lowered his head in an apologetic manner. “You don’t know me but… I think you know my daughter.”
“Oh… Is she a student of mine?”
“I don’t think so.”
(Y/N) sighed. “Sir, you’re wasting my time. If you don’t tell me who you are-”
“My daughter… Her name is Annie Leonhart.”
All the words died on her tongue at the very mention of the person who was (or still is) the Female Titan. The memories of the 57th expedition ran through her head. She remembered their attempt in trying to capture her in the forest and for a moment they were successful. That was until she roared which as a result caused multiple pure Titans to come out of nowhere and began to devour her Female Titan form. Everything that happened afterwards… The death of so many scouts. Her brother’s squad. She remembered how frustrated Erwin was when they returned back to the Walls in defeat.
Their deaths were by her hands…
“I have nothing to say to you, Mr. Leonhart.” (Y/N) knew she sounded harsh but she didn’t care. It was the truth. “Please stay away from me and my son.”
(Y/N) turned around and began to walk away from him. Until she heard Mr. Leonhart’s cane clatter to the ground. She turned around and saw him on his hands and knees.
“Please! Don’t walk away!” He begged. “You’re the only person in the world that can tell me if my daughter is alive. I’m begging you… Please… I just want to know… I need to know…”
(Y/N) watched as tears fell from Mr. Leonhart’s eyes, trailing down his cheek, and finally falling to the ground. One tear after another…
“Mama, why is he crying?” Kaito asked when he noticed that his mother made no attempt to console the man. Instead, she just stared at him with cold eyes. It was a look that Kaito has never seen before.
“He doesn’t concern us, Kaito.” (Y/N) replied to her son as she set him down, her hand wrapped around his small one. Her back was already turned away from Mr. Leonhart. “Come on, love. We need to get home.”
Mr. Leonhart immediately looked up. Kaito stiffened at the sight of the desperate father.
“Please, don’t go! She’s my only reason for living. You’re a parent just like me! If you lost your son, wouldn’t you be as desperate for answers as I am?!”
“...Let’s go Kaito.”
(Y/N) took a few steps forward, tugging her son along. But the sudden loss of her son’s warm hand made her stop altogether.
“Kaito!” She was just about to scold her son but stopped when she saw him standing in front of Mr. Leonhart.
“Don’t be sad… Here,” Kaito reached into his pocket and brought out a handkerchief that his mother gave him in the morning. He offered the piece of cotton to the older man. “No more tears.”
(Y/N) walked up to her son and Mr. Leonhart. She placed her hands on Kaito’s shoulders and watched the scene before her. Mr. Leonhart looked at her, his tear-filled eyes begging her once more in a silent manner. Though his attention shifted back at the little boy in front of him.
“Thank you…” He took Kaito’s offering and began to dry away the tears from his face. “You’re very kind.”
Kaito smiled. The man wasn’t so scary after all. “Mama said I should help sad people. Right, Mama?”
He propped his head back enough to look at his mother. His blue eyes seemed to radiate innocence and his smile that graced his lips was so carefree… (Y/N) internally sighed in defeat. Kaito is an angel compared to her.
The said man perked up at the mention of his name. He could feel his heart racing. Is this the chance he has been waiting for?
“If you have the time, would you like to join us for some tea?”
“Yay, tea time!”
(Y/N) picked up the newspaper from the ground before she turned the silver key, rotated the doorknob, and opened the door to hers, Zeke’s, and Kaito’s home. As soon as she opened the door, Kaito wasted no time brushing past her.
“Hooray! We’re home!” The child cheered as he made his way to the living room to play with his toys.
(Y/N) chuckled at Kaito’s childish behavior. She looked back at her guest and noticed the fond and almost distant expression on his face.
“Please make yourself comfortable,” (Y/N) told Mr. Leonhart as he limped his way inside before she closed the door. “Here, let me bring a chair for you…”
“No, no. It’s alright. I don’t want to trouble you more than I already have.”
(Y/N) nodded. “Alright then… We can sit in the kitchen while I make the tea. Pardon the mess…”
“Mess?” Mr. Leonhart looked around for any signs of a mess. From what he can tell, this house was the very definition of clean. Nothing was out of place and every surface was spotless. “You have a very clean and beautiful home, Mrs. Jaeger. Much better than my own.”
“Thank you,” (Y/N) said as she swiftly put away her groceries. She then placed the kettle on top of the stove, letting it boil to the desired temperature. She turned around to face her guest. “But if my brother were here, he would say otherwise. He’s more of a clean freak than I am.”
The moment of silence that followed was an uncomfortable one. (Y/N) didn’t mean to mention her brother-someone who is considered an evil devil from the most dangerous island in the world. It just slipped out.
This was her home. A place where she and Kaito can be herself. Their safe haven. There was no need to be afraid of saying the wrong thing. But now… If Mr. Leonhart can tell that she still harbors feelings to those on the island, will he tell Marley brass?
“Do you miss your brother?”
(Y/N) stayed silent for a minute. Should she answer honestly or not? How will her answer affect her and Kaito’s future? After a moment, she decided on an answer.
“I do,” She confessed as she crossed her arms in front of her chest. “He’s been by my side ever since I was born. He raised me. He protected me. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of him.”
“... I know how you feel.”
The high pitch whistling from the kettle filled the room as neither adult made no other comment to each other. They could hear Kaito’s voice as he played with his toys in the living room. (Y/N) turned around, removed the kettle from the stove, and poured its hot content in the cups. Once done, she turned around and set the hot tea in front of Mr. Leonhart.
She sat down in the chair in front of him before she spoke, “Mr. Leonhart, excuse me for asking, but I couldn’t help but notice that you don’t look anything like your daughter.”
The man huffed as he took a sip of his drink. “Then you would be the first.”
(Y/N) encouraged him to go on.
“I found her. She was just a baby and already thrown out of her home by her mother.”
“She’s lucky that you found her.”
Mr. Leonhart shook his head. “At that moment, it was more of how lucky I was.”
(Y/N) noticed the way the older man gripped his cup tighter. The look on his face… It was of self-disgust.
“When I took her in… The only thought running through my mind was how I wanted to make her into a warrior. How she was my chance for a better life as a Honorary Marleyan. So once she was old enough, I trained her. Every single day. I was relentless with her.”
“Sounds like someone I know.” (Y/N) commented. “I had an uncle who was the same way.”
“Is that so? Have you ever lashed out at him?”
Mr. Leonhart’s lips twitched upwards, briefly. “Then you had a better relationship with your uncle than I had with my daughter.” He then tapped his leg with his cane. “Annie had enough, rightfully so… One day she kicked my leg over and over again. The doctor told me I won’t ever be able to walk straight again.”
“You must have been mad at her, huh?”
Mr. Leonhart shook his head immediately. “Not at all! In fact, I was proud of her. I was even crying tears of joy at that moment.”
She gave him a confused look. “Why?”
“Because… Her training paid off. She could kill enemies without a weapon.”
(Y/N) remained silent as she took in this new information about Annie Leonhart. She never thought of her as anything else but the Female Titan that killed several of her comrades.
She sighed before she sipped her tea. “Well, she did exactly what you hoped for. You got your Honorary Marleyan status when she became a warrior. She was sent out on her mission to retrieve the Founding Titan and for that very reason… Your daughter killed many of my comrades during an expedition and even more in the city from what I’ve heard.”
Mr. Leonhart noticed the bitter tone the woman was using but said nothing. She has the right to be angry. In fact, he was surprised that he was still here, sharing a warm drink in her home. If it wasn’t for her son intervening, he wouldn’t be here.
“Please,” He began the speech he prepared for this very moment. “I know you have every right to ignore me and my pleas but I just want to know… If she’s alright… If she’s alive… You see on the day she left for her mission, I finally recognized her as my daughter, my true daughter. I realized that I didn’t care about becoming a Honorary Marleyan.”
“You had a change of heart?”
Mr. Leonhart nodded. The frown on his face deepened at the memory. “I was a fool for taking so long to realize… Still… I had her make a promise. A promise for her to come back to me.”
(Y/N) could tell that the man in front of her was sincere. The tears in his eyes were evidence enough. He had no ulterior motive. He genuinely wants to know about his daughter’s well-being.
And like he said before… As a parent, just like him, she would be just as desperate for answers if she lost Kaito.
Mr. Leonhart waited for (Y/N)’s reply. He watched her every movement during this moment of silence. The way she held her cup of tea. The way she closed her eyes as she savored the taste of her drink. The way her (H/C) hair remained perfectly in place as it framed her face. He also noticed the way she looked at the ring on her finger as her thumb gently caressed it.
“Your daughter is alive.”
The father wanted to jump from his seat from those four words. He felt as though he could breathe again. But that changed when (Y/N) spoke once more.
“Though, that is what we believed… You see, she encased herself in a hardened crystal. I wasn’t there when it happened but I was told that she used it as a last ditch effort to avoid capture. So to be safe, they had her moved underground. But that was three years ago, Mr. Leonhart… I can’t say for certain that your daughter is ali-”
“She’s not dead… My daughter isn’t dead…”
He stopped his rambling when (Y/N) brought her hand over the table and let it rest on top of his hand. He was surprised at the warm touch as well as the kind smile she gave him.
“Mrs. Jaeger, thank you… I can’t thank you enough.”
(Y/N) shook her head. “Don’t thank me. Kaito is the one that changed my mind.”
Almost as if he was summoned, the toddler came into the kitchen with a bright, happy smile on his adorable face. He barreled into (Y/N)’s arms and once he was seated on her lap he spoke, “Mama, I’m hungry!”
“You are?” (Y/N) teased as she ruffled his hair. “You’re in a hurry to be a big boy, aren’t you?”
“I want to grow up like Papa!”
The mother laughed but nodded. “I’ll make you something to eat in just a bit. I still need to talk to Mr. Leonhart.”
“No, no. It’s alright. Your son is hungry and I should be going.”
“Are you sure? You’re more than welcome to stay here a bit longer-”
The man shook his head. “I’ve already intruded on your time long enough. Besides, you should treasure the time you have with your son.”
(Y/N) looked at Kaito who was still on her lap. The boy was playing with her hair, ignoring all the boring grown-up talk, but once he sensed his mother’s eyes on him he gave her an innocent smile. It was the type of smile that made (Y/N)’s problems disappear… Almost.
“I can’t argue with that.”
Because in two weeks she will have to say goodbye to her son before going off to war.
It was hours after Mr. Leonhart’s departure and during which everything resumed its usual evening routine. Dinner went without a hitch as Kaito ate everything on his plate. Bath time was as chaotic as ever as Kaito loved to splash the water around and play around with the bubbles. Fortunately, all of Kaito’s energy settled down once his back hit his bed. He laughed loudly when (Y/N) tickled his stomach and in retaliation he tried to throw his blanket over her.
“Oh? You think a blanket will stop me?” (Y/N) asked as she continued her ‘assault’.
“Mama!” His giggles and (Y/N)’s laughter filled the once silent room. “It tickles!”
Deciding it was enough, (Y/N) stopped tickling her son only to give him kisses on the cheek. Kaito giggled once more at the feeling of his mother’s kisses.
“Yes, love?” (Y/N) brought the warm blanket up to Kaito’s chin and sat next to him.
“Is Mr. Lionheart happy now?”
(Y/N) smiled. “It’s Leonhart, love.”
“Oh… Is he happy?”
(Y/N) thought back to a few hours ago when Mr. Leonhart left their home. The smile on his face and the look in his eyes were filled with hope.
“I believe so,” (Y/N) answered. “It’s all thanks to you, Kaito.”
“Of course. If it wasn’t for you… I wouldn’t have made my choice but never mind that. The important thing is that you helped someone and in the end you made them happy.”
The child wanted to point out that he didn’t do much. He just did what she had taught him. And after hearing his mother’s stories about his father, he knew his father would help a person in need. Right? After all, he helped Mama from the scary place.
Kaito was snapped out of his inner thoughts when he felt his mother’s lips on his temple.
“It’s time for you to sleep, Kaito. We have a long day tomorrow.”
The mother laughed. “How can I forget?”
She leaned down for a good night’s kiss on her son’s temple. “Good night, love.”
“Good night, Mama.” He lifted his toy towards his mother. “Don’t forget Papa.”
(Y/N) smiled wistfully when she looked at the stuffed toy monkey. She wished that she was actually going to kiss the man that gifted Kaito the toy in the first place. That he was actually here with them.
But alas, (Y/N) could only wish for that dream to come true.
So with a heavy heart, she gave the toy a quick kiss and tucked the blanket once more over her son.
“Sweet dreams. I love you.”
“Good night, Mama. Love you.”
(Y/N) quietly walked out of her son’s room, closing his door, and walked towards the small but cozy living room. Only when she sat down, (Y/N) let out a tired sigh from her lips. Today was just a day full of unexpected surprises.
Closing her eyes, (Y/N) relaxed for a few minutes, relishing how comfortable the couch was underneath her. She slipped her boots off and unbuttoned her uniform’s coat. She listened for any sounds in the house, any creak or any squeak, but she heard nothing.
She sighed once more and opened her tired eyes. She looked to her left and the newspaper she threw down from earlier laid next to her. She completely forgot about that. Reaching over, (Y/N) read the newspaper.
“The Association to Protect the Subjects of Ymir met yesterday at the International Speech Forum hosted in Marley. Their primary purpose is to protect the Subjects of Ymir from other nations as they are considered victims of the Eldian Empire’s forced breeding. Instead they insisted that all the hatred should be pointed towards the devils of Paradis Island-”
(Y/N) stopped reading and threw the newspaper in the trash. She didn’t want to hear anymore of the same bullshit she’s been hearing ever since she stepped foot in Marley. Even when they were considered the same race, someone will always put the root of all evil on Paradis Island.
She wondered what Erwin would do if he was with her.
The familiar feeling of pain in her heart almost felt normal. She was used to the feeling of heartache every time she thought of her late lover. It has been three years since Erwin’s death but (Y/N) can recall every detail that day. Sometimes she would often wonder what would have happened if Zeke and Reiner hadn’t taken her.
Hugging her slightly cold form, (Y/N) got up and made her way to the bedroom she shared with Zeke for a brief time. The fond memories of her being pregnant with Kaito replayed in her mind. She remembered how scared she was at the thought of being pregnant. All on her own in a foreign country with no one, not her brother, not her friends, not her comrades; she was on her own for the first time in her life.
But she was wrong. She wasn’t alone. Kaito was with her. Inside of her; a small bump unborn and yet can feel everything (Y/N) was feeling. Though scared at the mere idea of becoming a mother, (Y/N) knew she wanted to bring Kaito into the world and no matter what might happen she’ll protect her son with her very life.
The first time she held Kaito in her arms… He took her breath away. He was so small in her arms as she tried to be as gentle as she could. His first cry was music to her ears after hours of labor but the pain was worth it because Kaito is actually with her.
Before she went to her bedroom, (Y/N) quietly opened the door to Kaito’s room. She smiled fondly at the sounds of her son’s soft snores.
“He snores just like you.” (Y/N) mumbled to no one in particular. It was more a simple observation she wanted to say out loud. She wasn’t one to believe in ghosts or the afterlife but sometimes there were moments where she felt eyes on her. Eyes that were watching her go about her day. Strangely enough this feeling didn’t bother her. In fact, somewhere deep in her heart, (Y/N) wondered if she and Kaito were being watched over by Erwin.
The idea sounded irrational. She knew it was just a desperate attempt to keep her memories of Erwin close to her heart and mind. Yet, she didn’t care. If Erwin’s spirit, soul, ghost, or whatever it might be, was still with her then she’ll keep living her life all the while cherishing her late lover that gave her so much.
Kaito’s snores interrupted her flow of thoughts and (Y/N) couldn’t resist comparing father and son with their traits. The memories of Erwin sleeping soundly came to mind. Most of the time Erwin would sleep over his desk whenever he found himself overwhelmed with paperwork… (Y/N) lost count how many times she coaxed her lover to get a good night’s rest on an actual bed. The smile he would give her each time she kissed him good night. On rare nights, Erwin would convince her to sleep with him as he claimed he slept better with her there.
Again, (Y/N) lost count on how many times Levi found them together the next morning. The look on his face was priceless, especially the first time it happened because Levi irrationally thought that Erwin and her actually had done the deed. Their relationship was still in its beginning stages, sweet kisses and warm hugs were the only things that were exchanged between her and Erwin. Something as intimate as sex was the furthest thing from their minds at least at that time it was.
Realizing how late it was getting, (Y/N) closed the door and finally made her way to her bedroom. The comfort of her bed was practically calling her name which was ironic for the woman because no matter how comfortable she was (Y/N) will always miss the warmth a person can provide. Maybe she could sleep with Kaito again…
She shook her head at the thought. Kaito is almost three years old. She has to remember that her baby boy is growing up with each passing day and fortunately Kaito's childhood was better than her own considering being an Eldian living in Liberio.
Her fingers made quick work getting rid of her uniform until she was in her plain clothes. She then opened the drawer that contained her clothes. (Y/N) grabbed the first thing available and quickly went to take a shower. The warm water rained down (Y/N)’s tired body and while she would normally relish her time in the shower she really just wanted to get to bed. Today’s events still weighed heavily in her mind.
After finally changing into her night clothes and finishing her nightly routine, (Y/N) made her way to her bed. Slipping into the soft sheets, (Y/N) laid down in her preferred position. Her hand slipped under her pillow searching for the one thing that has been helping her sleep at night for the past three years. Once feeling the familiar fabric, she pulled it out from under her pillow.
The forest green fabric with the familiar Wings of Freedom emblem: her Survey Corps cloak. It was the only material thing she had left from her life in Paradis Island. If any of the Marley brass knew she still had this, they would have it thrown out and marked her as a traitor. (Y/N) knew it was a big risk to keep her cloak, Zeke told her so, but she didn’t want to get rid of it. She recalled her conversation with her husband years ago.
“Zeke, please. This is the one thing I have left from there. I can’t get rid of it. Please.”
“But why? It’s just a cloak. You don’t need it-”
“I do need it, Zeke. And it’s not just a cloak… Please.”
Zeke took a moment to think of it and just as he was about to disagree he looked into her eyes. If eyes were windows to the soul then (Y/N)’s has been emotionally scarred enough. And Zeke knew he played a huge part in that damage.
He sighed, “Just… Keep it hidden from others.”
(Y/N) tightened her grip around the fabric of her cloak while she placed her other hand on top of her pregnant stomach. “Thank you, Zeke. You don’t know how much this means to me.”
Zeke can take a guess. Besides, he was the same way. If this cloak held such sentimental value for (Y/N) the same way Mr. Ksaver’s glasses were to him then he understood.
“Anything for my loving wife.”
(Y/N) rolled her eyes at the comment but smiled at him. “How lucky am I to have such a doting husband?”
“I know,” Zeke teased as he took her hand and brought it to his lips. “I’m such a catch, aren’t I?”
“You just had to ruin the moment with a dumb baseball term.” (Y/N) complained but the feeling of his lips on her hand sent a sense of warmth throughout her body.
“Baseball isn’t dumb!”
(Y/N) opened her eyes as the memory played in her head. She wrapped her cloak around her shoulders like she has done so many times back on the island. A smile found its way on her lips as she remembered the time when Erwin gave it to her.
Finally, with her cloak embracing her, (Y/N) closed her eyes as sleep took over her mind and body.
(One Week Later)
“Would you like some more tea, (Y/N) dear?” The older Mrs. Jaeger asked her when she came up to her with a teapot in her hands.
“Yes, please.” (Y/N) smiled at the older woman as she poured the content in her cup. Once Mrs. Jaeger sat down in front of her, (Y/N) asked, “How is Mr. Jaeger?”
“He’s sleeping right now. The medication he’s been taking makes him a bit tired around this time. I could wake him up if you want-”
“Oh no no. Let him sleep. He needs his rest and if you don’t mind me saying… You look like you need a break.”
Mrs. Jaeger gave her a tired smile. “Is it that obvious?”
(Y/N) nodded, “I’ve had the same tired look before.”
The older woman only hummed in response. She took another sip of her tea and watched Kaito as he was trying to read a book to his toy monkey. (Y/N) followed her line of vision and both women smiled at the sight.
Mrs. Jaeger turned to look at her grandson’s wife. “Have you found someone to take care of Kaito?”
(Y/N) sighed as she shook her head, “No. I’ve already interviewed a few candidates but… How should I say this? It's just that… I don’t trust them.”
“It’s reasonable to think that, (Y/N). It’s a mother’s intuition. If you have the feeling that that person might not be there for Kaito’s well-being, then you need to trust that feeling.”
“A mother’s intuition, huh?” (Y/N) chuckled as she placed her chin under her palm. “And here I thought I was being overly paranoid.”
“Well, this will be the first time you’ll be separated from Kaito. It’s normal that you are feeling this way.” She couldn’t stop the frown from forming on her face. “I’m just sorry I can’t take care of Kaito myself but with my husband’s mental state-”
“Don’t worry about it, Mrs. Jaeger. I’m sure I can find someone to take care of Kaito. You just worry about your husband. He needs you now more than ever.”
Mrs. Jaeger could feel the tears brimming. “Thank you, (Y/N) and forgive me.”
(Y/N) placed her hand on top of her in-law’s. “There’s nothing to forgive, Mrs. Jaeger.”
The woman smiled at her. It was hard to believe that (Y/N) came from the island. In her opinion, (Y/N) was nothing she thought an island devil would be like. She was kind, caring, and she had a sense of grace in her that was noticeable by anyone. Was it possible that Marley was wrong about the island devils?
“Are you finished with your tea, Mrs. Jaeger? I can take your cup for you.”
Mrs. Jaeger smiled and nodded. “Oh yes, dear. Thank you. You can just leave them in the sink. I’ll get to them later.”
(Y/N) shook her head. “It wouldn’t be a problem, Mrs. Jaeger.”
Before the older woman could argue, Kaito ran up to her with a big smile on his face. “Grandma! Can you read to me? Please?”
(Y/N) smiled and took her moment to quietly slip away. She made her way towards the kitchen’s sink where there were quite a few dirty dishes already there.
“Might as well,” (Y/N) told herself as she began to roll up her sleeves and began her task.
As she washed each dish with such dedication that would make her brother proud, (Y/N) didn’t notice she wasn’t alone. It wasn’t until she looked up and saw the reflection of a familiar figure in the kitchen’s window.”
“Good evening, Mr. Jaeger. How was your nap?”
“What are you doing here?
(Y/N) searched his face, her brows furrowed with concern. She never heard that tone of voice from him before.
“Kaito and I wanted to visit. It’s been awhile so I thought-”
“What are you doing here?” The look of anger and disgust overtook his features. “Why are you in my home?”
This made (Y/N) stop cleaning altogether and turn around to fully look at him. He looked haggard as if he didn’t sleep at all. Though it was the knife in his hand that immediately caught (Y/N)’s attention.
With heightened instincts, (Y/N) tried to remain calm. Her son was in the other room…
“Mr. Jaeger, what are you-”
“I ask the questions here, you she-devil harlot!” Mr. Jaeger stepped forward. The knife in his hand was pointed right towards her. (Y/N) noticed the slight shake of the knife.
“Okay, okay. You’re in charge here. It’s just you and me.”
“Why are you here?” He asked again but this time the anger in his voice was not misplaced. “What have you done to my wife and grandson?”
(Y/N) tried to keep her features to remain neutral but her mind had so many questions to ask.
“Your wife is in the other room with my son and Zeke is still at war.”
“At war? Zeke is at war?” He was talking to himself now. “Is it with you island devils? It is, isn’t it? Is that why you're here? You’re a spy! Infiltration! You disgusting island devils have finally proclaimed war on the great nation of Marley!”
“Mr. Jaeger, you have it all wrong.” (Y/N) had her hands up to show him that she’s unarmed but her words fell on deaf ears.
“But you won’t win. Marley will rise above and they will show no mercy to you island devils!”
“Mr. Jaeger! I’m no spy! Marley isn’t at war with Paradis. They’re at war with the nations in the Mid-East.” (Y/N) saw a glimmer of hesitation in the man’s eyes. “Do you remember when we were all at the train station?”
“It’s where we said goodbye to Zeke, remember?”
“Yes, Zeke. Your grandson. My husband. He had to go to war in order for it to be in Marley’s favor. Remember that?”
Mr Jaeger brought his hand to his head clutching its side as if he had a pounding headache. (Y/N) noticed that the knife in his hand was slowly lowering. She took a step forward, her hands were still up. She was just a couple of feet away to grab the knife.
“Give me the knife, Mr. Jaeger.”
The said man was crying. “What’s happening to me?”
“You’re sick, Mr. Jaeger. You need help.”
“But I’m a doctor. I can’t- I won’t…”
“Even doctors get sick, Mr. Jaeger.” (Y/N) told him. “But I can help you.”
“Why would you help me?” He wiped away his tears and raised the knife once again. “You’re a devil.”
“Because you need help. You have a wife, a grandson, and even a great-grandson that cares about you. I care about you. You aren’t in the right state of mind. If you do this, Mr. Jaeger, you’ll regret it for the rest of your life.”
“Regret?” Flashes of his innocent daughter and son came to mind. “I don’t want anymore regrets.”
(Y/N) gave him a sympathetic smile. “Then just give me the knife, Mr. Jaeger. We can fix this.”
The seconds ticked by and (Y/N) counted each one. She waited for him to give her the knife. It was a sign of trust and she could see it in his eyes that his initial resentment towards her was almost gone.
Because at that moment, just when (Y/N) could feel the knife’s handle in her palm, Kaito barreled into the kitchen with Mrs. Jaeger right behind them. Her son didn’t notice the situation right away but Mrs. Jaeger did. She even let out a small yelp.
Angrily, Mr. Jaeger tightened the knife in his hand and slashed it towards (Y/N). She hissed in pain. He managed to cut her palm. Blood spilled onto the floor.
“Dear, stop this! Please! It’s (Y/N)!”
Mr. Jaeger ignored them as he raised the knife with the intent to cause more harm. This woman, (Y/N), was a devil. He had to eliminate her. The world is better off without her and all those island devils. He’s doing the world a service.
A service… He stepped closer towards her.
A service.. He raised the knife.
A SERVICE! And with all his strength he slashed the knife in the devil’s direction.
It was over in an instant . (Y/N) evaded his attack with such ease even while bleeding. He blinked and the knife was knocked out of his hand and before he knew it his stomach was against the ground with the devil on top of him.
(Y/N) saw that he tried to reach for the knife but she was quicker. She knocked the knife away from them. Her hands firmly pressed against Mr. Jaeger’s wrists.
“Let go of me! You’re nothing but a harlot that manipulated my grandson! You hear me, you devil! You’ll never win! You hear me! Marley will prevail!”
(Y/N) tightened her hold before looking up to see a grief stricken Mrs. Jaeger and a terrified Kaito. Both had tears in their eyes.
In a calm voice, (Y/N) spoke, “Mrs. Jaeger, please, I need something to tie your husband with. A piece of fabric or belt. Anything.”
Mrs. Jaeger didn’t move. It didn’t even look like she heard her words. Her tears trailed down her face and her hold on Kaito didn’t show signs of release.
“Don’t do it! She’s tricking you. She’s a devil! A devil!”
“Mrs. Jaeger!” (Y/N)’s voice brought the older woman out of her state of stupefaction. “Please! I want to help your husband but I need to restrain him so he won’t hurt anyone else! Take Kaito with you. He doesn’t need to see any more of this.”
“Y-Yes.” She carried the crying child out of the kitchen.
“No!” Kaito cried out. “I want Mama!”
(Y/N) wanted nothing more to comfort her son but with Mr. Jaeger acting aggressive she had to stay put. The cut on her palm still oozed out its crimson fluid. She could feel her heart pumping faster than usual. (Y/N) took a deep breath. She had to stay calm. Not just for her but for the safety of her family.
(Y/N) quietly hissed at the antibiotic ointment the nurse applied to her palm. A worried and scared Kaito was by her side.
“Does it hurt Mama?” The young boy asked when he heard his mother hissed out in pain.
“Not anymore, love.” The nurse finished bandaging up her hand and left the mother and son alone in the examination room.
“Really.” She waved her finger to show her son that her hand was okay. “I’ll be fine, Kaito.”
The young boy didn’t say anything, instead he just wrapped his small arms around his mother’s waist. (Y/N) smiled down at her son and hugged him closer.
“I was scared, Mama.”
“I know sweetheart.” (Y/N) brought her injured hand to cup Kaito’s chin so she can see those beautiful cerulean eyes. She wiped away a tear from his cheek. “But I’m right here.”
“I want to go home, Mama.” Kaito sniffed.
“I know you do, love, but we have to see if your grandpa is going to be okay.”
Kaito frowned. He didn’t want to see his grandfather at all. Never again. “No! He hurt you!”
(Y/N) sighed. Of course, Kaito doesn’t want to see the man that caused her harm. The event that happened today will forever be ingrained in his mind.
“Kaito, don’t be like that. Your grandpa wasn’t himself at the time.”
“He gave you boo-boo!”
“He won’t hurt anyone else, Kaito.” (Y/N) told her son as she picked him up and balanced him on her hip.
Kaito huffed in defiance. He wrapped his arms around (Y/N)’s neck and closed his eyes. He didn’t want to see his grandpa or even his grandma at all. He just wanted to go home.
“(Y/N)! How are you? Did my husband-”
“I’m fine, Mrs. Jaeger. It was really just a minor cut. Nothing I can’t handle.”
Mrs. Jaeger sighed in relief but the guilt was still there. “Oh, (Y/N), I’m sorry for what my husband did. Truly. I thought he was getting better.”
“None of this is your fault.”
The said woman shook her head and brought a tissue to wipe away her tears. “I can’t help it. If only I took better care for him then maybe-”
“Don’t say that, Mrs. Jaeger. The important thing now is that your husband is getting the help he needs. Right?”
She nodded. Her eyes were bloodshot from all the tears and (Y/N) couldn’t help but feel sorry for the woman. First her daughter, then her son, and now her husband. She was beside herself with grief. How was she still standing?
“Mama…” Kaito quietly whined into her ears.
(Y/N) sighed and gave the woman a small smile. “I’m sorry but I should get going. Kaito is a bit tense right now.”
“Oh, of course, dear. I’m sorry for taking up your time. Go home and take care of yourself and Kaito.”
“Take care of yourself as well Mrs. Jaeger.”
(Y/N) turned around and walked towards the exit of the hospital. Unbeknownst to her, the older Jaeger woman was silently thanking the universe for her existence. She knew for certain that she wasn’t a devil like her husband claimed her to be.
“Thank you, (Y/N).”
“Mama let me down.” Kaito begged as he shifted from her hold. “Please!”
“Oh? Why? You like it when I carry you around, Kaito.” (Y/N) asked as she set her son down on the sidewalk.
“I’m a big boy, Mama!” Kaito whined and yet he still held out his small hand for her to take. (Y/N) smiled at his actions. She wondered if Kaito insisted on walking because he was worried about her injury.
“You sure are, Kaito, but maybe you can slow down on the growing up part. You should enjoy your time as a kid.”
But Kaito shook his head. His hand tightened around his mother’s uninjured hand. He brought up his stuffed toy monkey for his mother to look at.
“Papa said to take care of you, Mama.”
(Y/N) was surprised that her son could actually recall Zeke’s words.
Neither mother or son said anything else on their journey home. The evening sun was once again shining its last rays for the day. Once they finally arrived at their destination, (Y/N) brought out the key to their home.
“Let me do it, Mama.” Kaito asked. His hand grasping for the house key.
“Alright but can you reach?”
(Y/N) watched as her son tried to insert the key to the doorknob. She tried her hardest not to laugh as her son was on his tiptoes to get the door open. Smiling, (Y/N) brought her hands underneath Kaito’s armpits and lifted him up by a few inches.
“Mama! I wanna do it! You're hurt!”
“There’s nothing wrong with asking for help, Kaito.”
“But I can do it!”
She smiled at her son. “Maybe when you grow a few more inches, love.”
Kaito huffed but he finally turned the key and opened the door to his home. (Y/N) set him down on his feet and let out a sigh of relief when she was finally home and it would seem Kaito felt the same way because he finally had a smile on his face.
“Home!” The boy cheered as he went straight for his toys in his room.
“No running Kaito!” (Y/N) called out. She just locked the door when she noticed something off about her home. Did it look… Cleaner? Just as she was about to inspect further, (Y/N) heard the sound of running feet.
“Kaito! I told you not to run!”
That wasn’t Kaito's voice.
“Kaito!” (Y/N) raced towards her son’s bedroom.
“Mama! Run away” She saw him running up to her with a scared look on his face. Crouching down, she asked, “What’s wrong? What happened?”
It was difficult to understand through her son’s cries. “I-It w-was a p-pirate.”
“Pirate?” Now, (Y/N) was confused. “Where?”
“My room!” Kaito wailed.
(Y/N) looked up at the direction of Kaito’s room. Pirate or not, there was someone else here. “Stay here.”
Kaito gulped at the seriousness of his mother’s voice before nodding. He hugged his toy closer to his chest as he watched his mother go into his room.
(Y/N) quietly entered Kaito’s room. Nothing was out of place which was odd considering Kaito made a mess of his toys this morning. So who cleaned his room?
It was then she felt a hand wrap around her wrist. Survival instincts kicked in once more. (Y/N) grabbed the invader’s wrist and with all her strength she flipped the person over her shoulder. Whoever it was slammed against the carpet floor.
“OWW! What the heck (Y/N)?!” That voice… She knew that voice.
“First I get bit by your son and then I get slammed to the floor. What’s next?”
(Y/N) immediately let go of her old friend’s arm that she still had a hold on. She stepped back in surprise. She couldn’t believe what she was seeing.
“I told you it was a bad idea, four eyes. You know she hates surprises.”
(Y/N) knew that voice too. She would never forget the voice of the person who practically raised her.
But was this real?
“Levi? Are you really here?” She didn’t dare turn around in case this was actually just a figment of her imagination.
His touch on her shoulder proved this was reality. “I’m here, (Y/N).”
All the emotions she held in for so long broke down at the sound of his voice. (Y/N) turned around and engulfed her brother in a hug to which he happily returned.
After years of separation, the Underground siblings were reunited once more.
i like to think when the scouts lived outside the walls in marley that they at least took one picture together before eren disappeared, so that they wouldn’t forget what one another looked like so should things change
The part where they scream, "NOBODY KNOWS WHAT'S INSIDE OF ME." Over and over again in Rumbling - Aot season 4 pt 2 opening, I can't help but have the urge to scream this part out cause no one knows WHAT'S INSIDE OF ME FOR GOD'S SAKE 🙂😭
- after marco’s death, sasha and connie made sure that jean was eating properly
- levi stopped calling hanji “four-eyes” after they lost their eye
- historia named her daughter “ymir,” after the girl she loved
- niccolo had been planning on asking sasha to marry him after she returned from marley
- jean constantly draws his dead comrades because he’s afraid of forgetting their faces