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That wasn't all of us

"Well forgive us for being wary when there's no fucking way to tell you apart."

He acts like there are no guys in his head.

"You realize we still don't trust you guys, right? We haven't forgotten all the ways you tried to screw us over. All the ways you directly contributed to our misery."

Have YOU been getting outside support, Ben? Besides just Than and them I mean.

"Look, I'm working towards therapy, okay? But I spent eight sweeps being conditioned to believe that showing emotion would lead to punishment... So I'm starting small. Opening up to Than and Caenos about things, just trying to get more comfortable talking about my feelings.

I know I'm not at a place to accept a stranger's help, but I'm trying to get to that place."

*hands ben a muppet of himself*

"Keep it."

> Benjin thrusts his hands into his pockets.

Do you think he still has guys in his head?

"I don't think that kind of thing just stops. Maybe if he got some help... They both just want to sweep everything under the rug, but that's..."

> Benjin sighs.

"I can't force them to do anything they're not ready for... But they need support. Support beyond what we can provide for each other."

I think Zurven is going to open palm smack you.

"And I will accept my fate with grace and dignity."

I see who wears the sense of humor in the family!

"Dude. I'd knock his little ass into next week. Then where would I be? Zurvenless for a week is where. You want me to be Zurvenless for an entire week?"

HE WOULD THINK ITS FUNNY

"I'm not gonna slap my boyfriend for a goof."

have you tried open palm smacking zurven just one good time? not a backhand

one just open palmed shmack to the face

might help

"I no longer think you seem nice."

Hiiiiii Ben! I love u <3

"Heh. Uh... Thanks. I don't think I know you well enough to say it back and, I don't want to be disingenuous, so. You seem nice."

how's it going ben?

"They're both floundering and... I don't know what to do. I don't... Know how to help. I just- I want to fix it. I know it's not that simple, I... I know it's not.

But I want it to be. I don't just want to not be Harlan. I wish I could undo the damage he's caused."

Hey Ben I'm going to give you another sister

“You- You’re going- You realize what this sounds like right? Don’t- Don’t do that.”

> Hi Dan! I know what you meant by this.

> Ben thinks you’re gonna fuck his dad though.

omg dr benjin mahkir pop off

"Ha... Well. No, uh. I'll need a mortuary science degree, which is an associate's, not a doctorate."

How HAS working with Thanat been?

"Good! It's... It's been good. I'm actually... Thinking I might like to make it a permanent thing? But uh. That's gonna require getting a degree, which is... Kinda daunting. So I'm taking things slow. Definitely taking everything slow. But I know he's gonna support me through whatever I wanna do, which is... A really weird feeling. Nice weird. Good weird."

Ben, what was it like being raised by Harlan? He doesn't seem like the type to interact well with children.

"That man didn't raise me-- Erilee and Elison did. Harlan was just... This looming presence at the center of my life. He got more involved as I got older, but he wasn't... He didn't raise me, okay? He had all the freedom in the world to step away when he got frustrated, he never had to help me navigate growing up, and he didn't teach me jack shit about being a functioning adult. He acted more like a mentor than a guardian.

And... Yeah. He doesn't like kids. Especially not when they're homesick and crying to see where their lusus is being kept."

So do you and Thanat just slide shit to each other while you're working all day together

"We just. Set things down? Like on tables and shit?"

*gives ben a whole tray of fresh baked brownies*

> Benjin shoves his hands into his pockets.

"Uh. No thank you."

Ben you ever meet the restorer? And his two kids he loves so much

"Once when I was a kid, his son appeared in my room, took a brownie I'd been saving, and vanished."

ben, out of you, vey, and zurv, who's the most baby

"Uh, me, clearly. I'm the very embodiment of sunshine and optimism?"

That's okay cause Ben is the baby-est boy and we love him more

"Damn right. I'm baby as hell."