#cha:cerise Tumblr posts

  • explorerspack
    24.04.2022 - 3 weeks ago

    18, 9 for arcis ! or cerise :]

    i'll do one each :D

    arcis

    18. If they could live or visit anywhere, where would they go?

    this whole big world and the answer is so deeply "the palace at the center of the weeping city"....i'm told to commit to a hook and i do it. i think she'd also like to see the Aori Necessity tho, once she's solved every mystery of the weeping city. is this because i want to see it? yes.

    cerise

    9. How do they like their mornings? Rainy and chilly? Bright and sunny? Not at all because they don’t wake until noon?

    right NOW she just likes them "not snowing" and "as warm as possible". generally she's a big fan of the sunshine though :]

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  • explorerspack
    24.04.2022 - 3 weeks ago

    28 for Cerise raised eyebrow emoji

    28. If they could change their class(es), would they? To what?

    sigh yeah this one's IMPOSSIBLE. the thing is she'd like to have a higher hit die but also she'd like to have the best teleport spells possible. i could see her wanting to be a paladin, honestly, because that's a lot of what she respects, but they're not good enough at getting out of situations. and it's like. despite everything, despite the fact that it's consuming her, despite the fact that being a sorcerer is why she lost everything, she's never hated her magic! her magic is what saved her and its hers, not externalized!

    so anyway. short answer no she would not! she just would like to be a higher level sorcerer <3

    #cerise is like. it's like. your magic is you and you hate yourself but you don't hate your magic-- #and you never have not even when you were being tortured for it or manipulated into using it to do terrible things... #WOW! slams my head into a wall. #cha:cerise#ask game
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  • explorerspack
    24.04.2022 - 3 weeks ago

    28, 37 rowan, 4 cerise

    wow ROWAN i LOVE that guy....

    rowan

    28. If they could change their class(es), would they? To what?

    oh, sorcerer. sorcerer in a heartbeat. to have magic that was hers, that was in her blood and that she could channel and manipulate and that didn't belong to anyone else? that made HER unique and powerful and special and irreplaceable? yeah.

    37. What is their sleep/trance like?

    sob i've been playing this character for almost a year and a half and i'm just now realizing that she sure was a half-elf raised entirely by elves. when she was younger she slept fitfully and not quite enough, the one person she knew who couldn't get by on a four hour trance, but she's lived on the material plane long enough now that she's shaken that habit. she still is a pretty light sleeper though i think. that's the moon elf in her

    cerise

    4. Who was their childhood hero?

    oh, her mom for sure. also her dad, but like, specifically the cool versions of her dad that she'd invent because her mom wouldn't talk about where he really was or give her anything more than little details. and also marion, the cool older girl from her village who was probably also her first crush. and also. y'know. the god queen!

    #cha:cerise#cha:rowan#ask game #three dead people and the god queen for cerise--
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  • explorerspack
    24.04.2022 - 3 weeks ago

    10 and 30 for marigold, 20 and 40 for cerise? Happy sleepover Saturday! 💕🌿

    WOW marigold my BEST friend marigold...thank you :D

    marigold:

    10. When did their childhood end?

    so at least THIS version of marigold is established to have been orphaned at a pretty young age, i think probably like 8? so in a lot of ways then :( but i also think that the older street urchins looked after her and made sure she wasn't ever completely abandoned, and so in some ways she was still a kid. and in those same ways she still is!

    30. How does the sunset make them feel?

    thrilled :D night is when exciting things happen! and night's where she feels most comfortable, sticking to the shadows, using her experience to her advantage. she loves to see the sun go down

    cerise:

    20. What did they dream of “growing up” to be?

    :(! her like. BIG dream especially when she was little was getting to travel, which is really something because she sure is traveling now and she sure is just aching to NOT be doing that! i think she dreamed of being some sort of traveling messenger or a merchant or something like that. or even, especially after esme was taken, a soldier! but especially after her mom died she had sort of settled into the idea of just staying in her village, taking over the shop that she worked at, getting married, maybe having kids if the war really did happen and was over and arborea was stable and healthy....

    40. What sets them free?

    BOY i wish i knew,

    i. yeah no really i think that the answer to this question is something the campaign is trying to figure out. magic, maybe. that's the closest i can get. magic or power, which are kind of the same thing, and definitely not love.

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  • explorerspack
    02.04.2022 - 1 mont ago

    6, 30, 53, cerise

    thanks bron :]

    6. How does your character express that they’re uncomfortable?

    her body gets tense! tightening her jaw, clenching her fists. if she's shaking that means things are really bad. also wrapping her arms around herself or sitting all scrunched up. she also does a fair bit of stepping back, putting physical distance between herself and whatever's making her uncomfortable. but it's pretty much all physical, i can't think of anything verbal.

    30. What never gets old for your character? Something your character can’t get enough of?

    oh good one...hm. healing, i think, she genuinely loves doing it. she also really does cherish good food and beds to sleep on and warm clothes, i'm really excited for her to get to pista for those reasons in particular. she can't get enough of physical contact with her loved ones, also, unless she's intentionally holding herself back from them. and if maximo wasn't there she'd have stayed in that gaseous form for the full duration.

    53. What does freedom mean to them?

    man i really got stuck on this one for a while. in terms of like "what represents freedom", i think a lot of it is very physical for her, like, the choice of how to move her body, the very literal "i'm not in a cell, so i'm free"--she knows that's not actually true, but it certainly makes it easier to stomach floaroma. but the choice of how to use her magic is part of this, too. grimacing emoji. in terms of "how much does freedom mean to them", it means a lot! it really really does mean a lot but also at least for now freedom is a lower priority than survival and safety--although i know that would be different if she didn't have people to protect.

    #cha:cerise#c:crop#ask game #i am. still figuring out how freedom of thought and speech work here #the panopticon of scrying was really fucking with all of us in uberta and now petal's magic protects her from that #but she suspects he's reading her *thoughts* which is *awful* #even in *rhest* at least her *thoughts* were her own :[ #so it's like. how free is she right now? #and cerise really *loves* to have information (she's a me character it's one of the constants) both for its own sake-- #she's naturally curious she always pursued books and information and languages #and also because information is power! #yet she's pretty consistently especially lately told people Not to tell her things bc she's worried it'll endanger them #if someone is reading her thoughts! if someone blackmails her! if someone tortures her! #which is really. man slamming head into wall image #anyway 'what does freedom mean to them' fuck if i know dude. everything but also nothing right now. #that's the answer.
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  • explorerspack
    12.03.2022 - 2 monts ago

    man but at the end of the day, the nice thing about playing cerise is even with something like this, as long as it works that means she was right,

    #cha:cerise#c:crop #she has ALREADY started to click into thinking she did the right thing #or not RIGHT but the best option she had available to her at the time #it's another one in her sins she listed to elliot! like escaping rhest alone! like 'cooperating' with the mage! #the same box that the whole alliance with house anila will probably get stuck in! the 'if i was smarter if i was stronger #i could have figured something out but i'm not and i didn't and i'd do the same again if i had to.' #the category of things that as kes so astutely noted that one time cerise mostly blames herself for because that implies she HAD control #if the other sorcerers getting their tongues cut out was *her* fault then that means maybe next time she can be Better and can Stop It #whereas if it isn't her fault then she doesn't have that control and she really was just helpless and powerless #and who KNOWS what'll happen next time #which is a roundabout way of saying. man petal sure would have killed that woman if i didn't stop her-- #he sure was tasked with Bringing The Sorcerers To Pista and he sure will. do that! #and as kes once again so astutely said in my traitor channel 'you'd simply be absolutely entirely fucked'! #and. yup! we would be! i'm not even SURE what would have happened but ALL the options are bad. #cerise *can't* win a standoff against petal esp not with half her spells gone but she might have TRIED #or she might have gone into rhest survival mode and just tried to defuse the situation and keep her people alive and. #as bad as the current situation is that hypothetical one is SO much worse! #and so it. this sure was how the situation needed to be handled and. as long as this turns out okay. #as long as cerise's guess at what osmundo anila actually wants is right! as long as they actually stay safe! #if this WORKS if it achieves the desired effect then. it's still unforgivable but it's RIGHT! #i am thinking AGAIN about kobus 'those were the wrong actions but you weren't wrong to take them' and cerise ENTIRELY disagreeing #the ends justify the means not in the sense that the means were justified but in the sense that they had to be done #head in my HANDS. #apologies for the FLOOD of crop posts but in my defense jesus fucking christ was i put in a situation. #mutuals who do not know the situation feel free to ask about it oh Boy would i like to explain-- #i. man i really really love this game....i know it's obvious from the everything about me but all i do is open that server and go #'WOW i'm so lucky to be here....'
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  • explorerspack
    11.03.2022 - 2 monts ago

    AH just realized I think this is the first time that elliot's been the one to present a plan and have cerise just go "yeah, you're right, that's what we'll do." slamming my head into the wall.

    #c:crop#cha:cerise #man she's so so so grateful for him right now. I'M so grateful for him right now. #there was a really fun effect the other night where i was just staring at that really brutal rp message about the shifted dynamic #reading it for the second time as i tried to figure out how the hell to go on #and then meg EDITED it to add the 'elliot walks beside his sister' line and i FELT it hit my heart-- #it. man. he sure is On Her Side #it's that like. steadiness that comes with being siblings. cerise and elliot certainly disagree-she just counterspelled him! #they were both snapping at each other! she immediately came at him with this harsh tone and he pushed her on her choices! #but at the same time he made it very clear that he's with her anyway #and it's. cerise NEEDED him to say 'go talk to monique and i'll talk to calista' #she's soooo good at bearing down and making Logical Next Steps but this was bad enough that she hadn't GOTTEN there yet #and i like. she kind of *needed* someone to be like 'go talk to them' #or she'd have feared their reactions enough to keep isolating at least for a while longer #and there's elliot! and he's on her side and he's not angry at her and he's the one to pitch damage control #and they still disagree and she's counterspelled him before and she'll do it again if she thinks she has to #but GOD she's so so so grateful to have him here. she's SO grateful. #and so she can let him see that she hates herself and she's scared and she doesn't know what she's doing! #even if just for a second she can let him see it! #because it's. that's her brother! that's what your sibling is for!
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  • explorerspack
    07.03.2022 - 2 monts ago

    again i’m saying the crop situation is really really awful,

    #cha:cerise#c:crop #idk if i have any more to say that i haven't already said here or in my private channel but. D: #she's seen that kind of look...she's FELT that.... #she knows what it feels like to fight back and to be hurt and realize there's no point in fighting... #and now here she is making other people feel like that! here she is using the lessons she's learned about fear and control! #because fuck dude if she doesn't use every tool in her arsenal and if those aren't tools too! #this sucks <3 #i've given up on trying to describe her interiority in rp but it's just. so so so much self-loathing and regret.
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  • explorerspack
    06.03.2022 - 2 monts ago

    whatever it takes! over and over again I've said cerise will do whatever it takes to keep them safe. I'm going to jump into the ocean <3

    #c:crop#cha:cerise #man. man. man. #she's gonna regret this immediately she's going to HATE herself for this #she was going to hate herself ENOUGH for just SAYING it i. jesus christ! #but she doesn't have time to think this through and she's scared and angry and has the bone armor out and-- #she has to protect them! and this woman is putting them in danger. and in this moment cerise doesn't have Time to #think of all the other factors at play beyond just those few facts so. here she is. #it's control! it's all about control D: #whatever it takes to keep them safe including using her magic to hurt one of the sorcerers. including holding them prisoner #after everything--after EVERYTHING--she's the one holding them prisoner. this is SO awful. #i. man. i don't stand by this choice even a little bit but neither does cerise! #it's not how she THINKS of herself it's not how she thinks of her relationship with the sorcerers but it's still what she's going to do! #she really might end up walking this back and telling the woman to go like. an HOUR from now! #man now i'm second guessing myself again. man--
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  • explorerspack
    04.03.2022 - 2 monts ago

    crop for the past year has just been a steady cycle of me firmly telling myself that i can’t expect to save esme and i’m going to be so hinged about it when she dies and then throwing that all out the window as soon as i talk to her

    #D: #i really care about her....i really want her to get a chance.... #and telling her to stay a prisoner until i can figure something out is. well. epic wins for character consistency-- #for cerise's established trait of Staying Trapped because of the fear of what would happen if she failed to escape and a searching #for the right moment and for an actual plan-- #and it'll be SO bad if this gets her hurt but it. jesus christ i can't let her get captured by arborea.... #and i HAVE ideas for how to actually give her a shot but none of them are GOOD and there's SO many factors at play-- #who's gonna get on call with me and work this out. placard emoji. #c:crop#cha:cerise
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  • explorerspack
    26.02.2022 - 2 monts ago

    5, 6, 19!

    thanks mer :]

    5. Which of your d&d characters has been the most like you?

    elodie was definitely the most like me when i created her, and she probably still is the closest, but the longer i've played her the more she's developed as her own character and the further she's gotten from being Me. cerise is honestly way more similar to me than she SHOULD be considering the uh. everything about her. and then she's an npc and the similarities are easier to see bc it's a game in the real world but beck motw also deserves to be on this list

    6. Which of your d&d characters has been the least like you?

    there's oneshot characters who are the easy answer but in terms of real characters it's actually probably jess? her 20 cha and boldness and flirtatiousness is about as different from me as you can get. rowan is up here too, but especially lately rowan has been taking on more of this like..."fake it til you make it but we're all going to make it together" thing going on that's moved the needle more in the "similar to me" direction. and then honestly it's a bit soon to say but i think my crop bonus guy is gonna end up taking this one in the end, especially if i do it right

    19. How did you discover D&D?

    :] i'd played a lotr ttrpg with my family through middle school and high school, and then my friends and i went together to check out ttrpg club at the beginning of freshman year of college, didn't really vibe with anyone there, leaned into our little huddle and went "i bet we could just do this ourselves" and then we did! with dungeons and dragons fourth edition bc that was the edition that our friend owned the books for even tho fifth edition had been out for 3 years at this point--

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  • explorerspack
    26.02.2022 - 2 monts ago

    4 8 15 23 42

    thank you!!!!

    4. What has been your favorite d&d character you’ve played? (NPCs count for DMs)

    oh pleading emoji...i love them all but it's cerise my bestie my babygirl my beloved my cherry tree divine soul sorcerer. i love her so much i love her backstory i love her mechanics i love writing her i love being 18 cha 16 int i love her like...motivations. it's such a delight to play a character who is like. "the point of me is to protect these specific people. i have other things i'm interested in, other goals, other things i'd like to do but none of them compare to just keeping them alive" but then in order to DO that she'll do or be basically anything she needs to...man. she's a delight. it's been a week since i've played her and that's too long.

    8. What is the most memorable natural 20 you’ve ever experienced?

    i got this one already so i'll do another one :D my valor bard, alita, who was chosen to wield this sacred prophecy sword, spent two combats not making a single attack and then on her very first attack with the sword crit against the person who had been torturing her friends and was holding them hostage. and she did 69 damage :D

    15. Do you prefer to DM or play?

    i like playing :] dming is very satisfying but it's also exhausting and a lot of pressure, but playing is just getting to be a little guy :] getting to experience a story :] getting to hang out with my friends :]

    23. Do you have any art of your characters?

    i do!!!! and MAN this is making me wish i had a specific tag for it but i found this one of my bard alita (https://explorerspack.tumblr.com/post/664698083235495936/sofhtie-drew-my-valor-bard-alita-for-my) that my friend nicki drew for me :] there are others also but i don't want to hunt for them,

    42. Have you ever rolled turn into a potted plant on the wild magic table?

    HA no i have not personally, BUT, in my first 5e campaign our wild magic sorcerer once rolled the "roll on the wild magic surge table every turn" one and on one of those she was turned into a potted plant. she also turned blue, aged two years, and grew several inches. incidentally this also saved us from a probable tpk

    #ask game #thank you!!!!! #it saved us from a tpk bc she didn't want to risk exploding anyone so she ran out of the room away from the rest of us #until the surge was over #which incidentally meant that she was out of the room when the rest of us blew OURSELVES up by being #a little too uncautious with the unstable magic wand-- #cha:cerise#cha:alita
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  • explorerspack
    23.02.2022 - 2 monts ago

    anyway i finished with all my little stats and i was right, cerise is the only living pc who’s taken more damage than she’s dealt. feeling sooooooo hinged about it.

    #i. man. #cha:cerise#c:crop #something something 'if i knew the sight of blood was just a weakness and not the whole reason that you made me' #something something 'it is strong it can take it if you can't your sinews are more intuitively designed for dance' #it largely comes down to just the types of battles she's been in #along with her combat role being more of a controller in a couple of those #and then the like 70ish damage she took from just the dragon #but she also frankly tends to roll pretty poorly in combat 😬 girlie really misses a LOT #(maybe ill do miss to hit ratio stats maybe THAT'S my next project--) #and she hasn't taken as much damage TOTAL as most everyone else #again mostly bc of which battles she hasn't been there for #i haven't run the numbers but i think she HAS taken the most if we're only including battles she was there for :( #which. all this to say it does fully check out and isn't THAT surprising but at the same time. MAN. #shes a sorcerer :( lowest hp in the party now and was second lowest other than sico :( #for all her +7 intimidation and people she's killed there's a reason she thinks the best thing she can do for her people is stand #between them and danger and take anything that comes herself! #she. isn't a fighter! she's not GOOD at battle! #but now she has lightning bolt 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #man those numbers don't even include out of combat damage taken...the ratio would be WORSE....
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  • explorerspack
    18.02.2022 - 3 monts ago

    really. feeling something about how at the point when cami and cerise had their first fight about cerise leaving the city, the "you don't get to pretend that this isn't your war" fight, cerise had dealt 85 damage in the campaign and camille had dealt 358.

    #c:crop#cha:cerise #and ofc cami had been there longer but not THAT much longer #cami's 12 combats compared to 6 for cerise #and also ofc the damage tracking metric is not actually an accurate picture of combat usefulness in 5e #my lil spreadsheet does not account for cerise's counterspell keeping spirit guardians up a whole extra round or all the times sico's bardi #is what made someone hit or all the other ways that support actions affect the outcome of a combat #but even SO #it sure adds a dimension to cerise saying 'as if what i can do is going to make a difference against an army' #and to cami insisting that this is a war both of them need to fight #she sure is a knight! a warrior! she sure wasn't meant to be but has built herself into one! #she dealt 274 damage at rhest and the swore her oaths the next morning! #whereas cerise is at this point the only living character who's taken more damage than she's dealt #(something that I'm pretty sure will still be true when I've finished inputting the battles which. feeling REALLY 🚪about that!!!) #98 damage over the course of two battles in the two days preceding this conversation headinhands #and coming off the desperate loss that was three failed hold persons and a counterspelled counterspell against esme #even if cerise is *glad* by this point that esme lived that SURE was a sharp display of her own magic not being good enough #and two of those hold persons or the counterspell could have saved four lives. #so it's like. this whole source of conflict btw them *mostly* comes down to priorities where cerise places her and hers above everyone else #while camille is sworn to Everyone #and also to cerise's core fear motivation vs cami's idealism #but man if there isn't something to seeing all the numbers in comparison to what they both think their magic can do... #and i worry this post comes across as if im saying damage output is a good measure of combat usefulness. i KNOW it isn't. but especially in #a war game and especially in terms of how much you believe you can affect the survival of a city. its certainly SOMETHING
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  • explorerspack
    14.02.2022 - 3 monts ago

    man cerise talking to sico right now feels really insane,

    #cha:cerise #it. man they have a dynamic of all time right now... #she doesn't know where he IS :[ she doesn't trust him she doesn't want to tell him anything but also. she does! #WEEKS ago (and months ago irl) they talked about a safe place for the sorcerers in floaroma! #but she thought sico would be WITH her she thought she'd have his HELP! #and instead he was. collaborating with the people she HATES! and SHE didn't get to hear his last speech to cami and fasach! #she doesn't know if he's STILL working with arborea! if losing his agricolan and floaroman allies would push him back to them! #she doesn't like. on some levels she and sico very instinctively understand each other but she also doesn't have the full #picture of his story like cami does or even like fasach did #but again always the. he didn't betray her! he could have sabotaged the rhest mission and he did the opposite! #and even now he's trying to help her!!! and she'll help HIM if she can! they're like. some of the only allies each other have GOT! #but man she's so scared... #that's WHY her last little sending was just the two words it's. she's SO scared...she's terrified she can't handle floaroma... #she was ALREADY worried enough about their safety and now she has to worry about some sorcerer-killer on the loose... #and so hearing the slight mirth in his voice was. man. just a reminder that she's not BUILT for this! #like she kind of *expected* it she *knows* he was always careful with what he said but like. still. #i do wish she'd have told him that she's glad he's alive tho. bc she IS but i forgot to have her SAY it #that's what i get for trying to rp at the grocery store #and there's also the meta-twist of me not wanting to drag him into a narrative he's technically supposed to be out of #the retired pc gray area #but anyway i think their little. information-passing alliance over sending here has the possibility to be Really insane... #that last little two-word response and then 'elsewhere a smile stops tugging at sico's lips' made me. well! #every single dynamic in this game sure is. it sure is! #man...out of the people who went to rhest with her it. sico a traitor and she's fighting with cami AND auberon and fasach is DEAD....
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  • explorerspack
    13.02.2022 - 3 monts ago

    made a little list for myself of all the times cerise has used her bone armor so i could get an idea of how much the runes have spread and. man. sometimes i think i play her as too stable,

    #cha:cerise #it. the bone armor is so bad.... #it's so excruciatingly painful and it's so horrible and it brings up such traumatic memories...and she used it EIGHT times in uberta.... #she was only THERE for what? five days? six? #three times on november fifth ALONE headinhands.... #and i'm pretty sure it literally never helped! #she wasn't really getting attacked with attack rolls! the mob didn't attack her! the dragon hit anyway! #but she keeps. doing it! because it DID help a LOT while breaking into rhest! there sure were attacks that missed bc she had it up! #and it's a resource and it. unlike her magic the only controlling factor is whether she can handle it! at-will mage armor! #or at least that WAS true until recently #i can't do this now bc of the whole 'slowly killing her' thing but her plan originally for this road trip was the use the bone armor like #every fourth day or so #because its usefulness depends on her being able to use it and then immediately go into a battle situation #and she's worried that if she like. forgets what it feels like. she won't be able to use it effectively #but that's not worth it anymore now that she knows it IS a limited resource (that *she's* a limited resource) so! #anyway sometimes i look at my own character and i go 'jesus christ how is she this functional' #and the answer is always. she has to be! she has to be and so she is! #beloved. she deserves a break :( #i just think it's [emotion] that the only time she had a breakdown about the mage armor specifically was after talking to maximo #and it was the combination of...he sure is a wizard! she sure did have to sit there while he stitched up her arm! #AND he told her she was dying AND she had to use the bone armor...and she still only had a breakdown for five minutes....
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  • explorerspack
    08.02.2022 - 3 monts ago

    was looking for something old in the crop server and found when sico rolled a nat 20 insight on cerise talking about her home village, like, right after she’d been introduced, before we even got to rhest, and i said the nat 20 got him “guilt at leaving, and that she’s pretty sure no matter what happens she’s never going home again” and i. jesus christ,

    #c:crop#cha:cerise #i. man. #she sure is never going home again. #having to tell elliot about her village means i'm Thinking about it again :[ #the thing is that in some ways it doesn't feel real to her! she isn't. in denial like elliot is but it also doesn't...emotionally compute #bc their home was already gone as far as THEY were concerned! but that's. different from knowing what Happened #it's different to know that something is out there and just separate from you and to know that it was. destroyed #and so many people were killed :[[[[ #the way that it was a threat from the beginning! from when i CREATED this character i knew her home and brother were #in danger of being hurt as retaliation for what she'd done #and it sure happened to elliot so i knew it could happen to her village too! #we alluded to it in rp a few times! #which is why it makes me so fucking headinhands that it was a *rebellion* in the end... #not even a REAL rebellion just a rescue plan! but that's still. man. i know i've said this before but those were their FRIENDS! #their FAMILY! and a leyline village that must have known DOZENS of sorcerers in its time it. of COURSE they wanted to stop rhest #and it's. this is one thing cerise doesn't blame herself for. #or she like...does a BIT because she recognizes the causality and she hates that she couldn't stop it but it's like how she blames herself #less for augustine's death than for the other three. she doesn't blame herself for the people who love her risking themselves for her #that's what love is! #i. man. i can't get over elliot being angry at them for getting themselves killed. #all meg does is make choices. #but their home sure is just gone...so many of their friends are dead...:[[[[[ #cerise and elliot make me so upset. they make me so upset. #and then also that little 'guilt at leaving' bit from the nat 20 is something that dropped off a bit i think but i stand by #the guilt of knowing that she went Willingly to rhest #even tho she logically knows she didn't have a real choice and didn't know what it was that's still...there! #everyone knows sorcerers don't come home maybe she should have fought maybe she should have figured it out and saved herself #instead of walking willingly into the lion's den because it was the god queen's will #anyway. i'm sure thinking about that a lot as we're walking to floaroma with petal. i'm sure thinking about it a LOT.
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  • explorerspack
    04.02.2022 - 3 monts ago

    really obsessed with cerise dirty 20 and then nat 20 for a 24 insight on petal, dirty 20 intelligence insight to know we're short on supplies, 17 intelligence insight to infer the political/war repercussions of a single statement, and then as SOON as she has to roll insight on her brother she has advantage and still ends up with a 12...so true avrae I guess....

    #😬😬😬😬 #the way in which this is so consistent is. well! dice SURE have a story there! #cha:cerise#c:crop
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  • explorerspack
    03.02.2022 - 3 monts ago

    also man. enough time has passed since uberta that i feel like i can say now. jesus fucking christ i’m so glad cerise wasn’t there,

    #c:crop#cha:cerise #i. really think she'd be dead #fasach DIED! unkillable fasach!!!! and we almost lost our second-most tank-y and RANGED pc! #looking at some of those battles????? she had 37 hit points and 16 ac and only touch range healing! #i'd be feeling guilty about not having a pc there and then meg would casually say things like 'yeah allyr woulda charged cerise' #and i'd be like 'AH. I SEE.' #and. especially if her sorcerers were still there and we still lost she simply would not have made it out :[ #she'd simply have died trying to defend them! #or been captured i suppose meg didn't tell me how that all would have gone down but she sure wouldn't drink the fire even if she had it #and even beyond the 'she'd probably be dead' part i just am so glad she didn't have to see all those hybrids.... #AND all the arborean soldiers... #there was that one  line about the regulars who hit maximo's trap in the cathedral battle screaming as they burned in the fire sphere #and i haven't been able to stop thinking about it. more arborean screams! and to fire too! #and those guys weren't deadmen or cannelle or hybrids or elites or even sergeants they were just. soldiers! #like cerise's brother's friends! like HER friends! like elliot if he hadn't've been taken to rhest instead! #and then. most of all the *unicorn*.... #a bigger part of cerise's functionality than she knows depends upon the assumption that hybrids are made of people who are Dead #it's why the dragon bothered her so much but he never ACTED like a person or a general around her #he didn't speak to her or even attack intelligently he just. tried to eat her. so she can go 'yes this is just a mindless monster' #and not have to deal with the fact that there was Something Else there #but the unicorn. man. #i think. to see someone else who'd been tortured by the mage and turned into an unrecognizable form #but still retaining some of their own sentience and some of who they were #and who was FREED from rhest but then somehow captured and hurt and forced to serve arborea again #well. i am very glad i don't have to figure out how to roleplay cerise seeing that. #she would have wanted it dead! she would have wanted the unicorn dead from the second she saw it #despite the fact that she herself would rather be captured than killed she would have wanted to and tried to kill the unicorn. #and she'd have stayed functional for the battle bc she always does but oh boy would it have had repercussions in the long term #but it's literally so fine!!! she wasn't even at the battle and she's literally so alive and doesn't have to think about the unicorn.
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  • explorerspack
    22.01.2022 - 3 monts ago

    1, 17, 20 for Jessamine and Cerise!

    ty katana :D under the cut bc it got long

    Jess:

    1. what is their coffee shop order?

    largest iced coffee possible with several extra shots of espresso and pumps of flavor, different every time.

    17. when were they the most angry that they’ve ever been?

    her backstory isn't super fleshed out but a big part of jess's Deal is that she's from a biiiiiiig city and runs in shady circles where powerful spellcasters and entities have no problem throwing their magical weight around to bully and humiliate and take advantage of people who don't have access to that kind of power, so definitely something connected to that. watching her friend's pottery that he was trying to sell get used as a Catapult component in a frivolous duel or having a powerful wizard use telekinesis to shove her out of his way or having to take insults from an asshole sorcerer that she knows could obliterate her with a flick of their fingers. so it was SOMEthing like that.

    20. describe a favorite roleplaying moment with this character

    i think the very recent moment in the egg where she interrupted the lightning queen’s guys harassing the totally-not-a-death-knight :] because, as in the above answer, jess doesn’t like bullies! and she’s not a 1st level sorcerer/4th level fighter anymore, she’s Powerful and she has Powerful Friends so she can just charge right in! and it’s fun to play a character who Charges Right In :] and also it was really sexy :D

    Cerise

    1. what is their coffee shop order?

    hot hazelnut latte :] if it’s starbs and christmas time she gets a chestnut praline latte :]

    17. when were they the most angry that they’ve ever been?

    this one’s surprisingly hard to answer for her bc most of the things that have made her the most angry--learning the mage had elliot, learning the other sorcerers’ tongues had been cut out, when she was first taken to rhest, when the dragon came to kill her sorcerers--those moments are so tied up with terror and guilt and grief that it’s hard to describe her as “most angry she’s ever been.” so if we’re looking for pure anger, i think there must have been a moment in rhest, maybe when she first arrived, maybe when she was being taken from the laboratory to the cells or vis versa, maybe shortly before she was supposed to be turned into a hybrid, when a priest who was stationed at rhest looked at her and thanked her for her sacrifice in the name of the God Queen. that was the most pure rage she’s ever felt.

    20. describe a favorite rp moment with this character

    :D this time i am thinking about her last conversation with kobus :] i think their dynamic is. really neat. they’re similar in some ways but REALLY different in others. it got overshadowed a bit by talking about sico but i think about kobus saying “your actions will not have the desired effect, but that doesn’t mean you were wrong to take them” and cerise coming back with “if they have the wrong effect, they were wrong” ALL the time. and then there was the whole conversation about friends you’d kill if you had to....delightful

    #jess is just me critiquing a trope i HATE in ttrpgs of powerful spellcasters misusing their magic and hurting or even just inconveniencing #others bc they think it's funny #(*cough* artagan *cough* jester lavorre) #but magic as representative of other types of power is kiss ww #so jess hates bullies! #and that's all my asks for this game :D heroic of me if you think about it. #cha:cerise#cha:jess#ask game
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