Smoking a cigarette and drinking diet coke while with your friends and they’re all eating>>
does anyone think i’m making progress i honestly have no idea
So i don't have a binging problem. I overeat once in a while, sure, but l hadn't properly binged up until yesterday. I think it could've been considered a binge. Like, I had a whole 500 ml tub of ice cream, 2 regular sized domino's pizza's, a kfc fried chicken bucket in one sitting till I felt sick. Maybe the motive was to make myself so disgusted of the thought of eating, yk? So that whenever I thought I craved any of these foods in the future, I would remember yesterday and stop myself. Whether this will work or not, I have yet to figure out but what matters is that after my binge, I had like 18 laxative pills ( I think 1-3 is the recommend amount) and it was painful, but totally worth it. Like, I was convinced that I'd be gaining fuck tons of weight but i didn't like holy shit, I didn't lose anything, sure but i didn't gain a single pound. I'm just so fucking happy
I did bad.
I overate on Mon but I told myself I'll just work it off (and I did which was nice).
But then I broke my fast twice (on Tue and Wed/yesterday). Fortunately I didn't eat over my goal, but I wasn't as active and I'm looking at the numbers and I feel it. In my fucking body. I can feel the numbers becoming fat lol.
I'm still feeling guilty over it and I hate myself bec I'm supposed to make up for it today but, I just don't feel like working out.
I don't even have any real reason why I want to lose weight. I dont feel like i get jugded for my body, and I didn't really get treated any differently when I was at my lowest weight. But when I'm smaller, life is just better? I'm just happier? More content? When I'm losing weight things just make sense? It's like I don't really feel -real- unless im skinny. Does anybody else feel this way?
(Block dont report please, I'm not pro anything<3)
Just had a nightmare that my family took the scales I need help
my freaking treadmill is broken what the fuck am i supposed to do now
okay so, even though i broke my 5-days fast and finish it as a 3-days one, i am motivated to do another fast until friday!
i can do this! <3
i wish i could go back to 3rd grade so that i could never be ur friend
i hate how life fucks me up sometimes. i'm going away for three days to the beach with family which means i wont have any privacy to exercise or even fast
HOW AM I MEANT TO LOSE WEIGHT BEFORE MY PARTY IF LIFE HATES ME?
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New account but im not new to this shit. Been doing this for like 2 years now.
Hw was 76kg / 167.6lbs
Cw is 51.5kg / 113.5lbs
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Ahhhhhh i was doing so hood yesterday then i ruined it. I mean its not high, but its not low either :/
I was snacky at night cus i had been studying all day so i had a bowl of cereal with banana, protein powder and peanut butter which ruined it. But its okay i still stayed under 900 and i walked home from school so i dont feel too bad.
Tw: s/h and ed
I relapzed a week ago but they were only baby cvtz. I hope to hit ztyroz again like i uzed to but that will take a while bc itz zummer :/. I have only eaten 200~ caloriez today zo ig that meanz my body wantz to ztart ztariving itzelf again which makez me kinda happy. I have been feeling like zhit but my gf iz keeping me going zo thatz making me feel better. Might rewatch a lot of old boyinaband and daniel howell vidz bc thoze make me feel a lot better. Ik yall dont give a fuck but i juzt wanted to rant a lil. Thankz for liztening to my tedtalk
posting what u ate today to hold me accountable cuz i’ve been binging, and yes i binged again today, so i need public shame for it:
breakfast - 210
- 1 cup pinappple (82)
- apple (80)
- 1/2 tsp cinnamon (3)
- bite of my friends blueberrry muffin (45) (i regret this)
lunch - 447 (ughhhhh yay binging!!)
- 1 slice pizza (150)
- chocolate muffin (190)
- scooby snacks (60)
- 2 jolly ranchers (47)
dinner - 310
- 2 mushroom tacos (122)
- 1 cauliflower taco (86)
- 1 corn tortilla (50)
- 3/4 corn on the cob (52)
snack - 550 (more binging!!!)
- starburst (20)
- multigrain cheerios (113)
- fruitsnacks (80)
- stok coffee (15)
- chips ahoyxreeces cookie (80)
- 2 ritz crackers (32)
- icecream cake (210) (it’s my dads bday)
- vitamin water zero (0)
okkkkkkk so bottom line is i ate 1,457 calories today and i hate myself!!
i’ve been binging all week when i like, DESPERATELY need to be losing weight
im at my highest weight ever right now and it’s only gonna get worse and i cry because i hate myself but i have no right to cry because im barely even trying
i suck :(
i have a dilemma. should i subtract the cals i burned from cals eaten thus allowing me to eat more cals bc i burned them off. orrrr should i stick to my calories goals regardless of what i burn. idk idk
Tw vent/ rant/ ed??
It really pisses me off when people alter hashtags of a triggering topic for me because yes I can block the tag but then when someone puts a bunch of numbers and symbols in place of letters like #\ an0r3x etc. I can’t just predict that will come up in my feed and suddenly I’m watching something that I try so hard to avoid. I know I can’t censor everything online and expect people to cater to me but plz just think about others especially when it’s an incredibly triggering topic that (not to sound dramatic) can lead to death
i’ve been so good and healthy the last couple days but now i just ate 1,5 bags of chips on my own. the bags were small and kinda healthy but i don’t want to be in this pattern anymore:/
Having bulimia and orthorexia simultaneously is wild. I binge on things like tomatoes, berries, yogurt, or turkey/chicken because I'm still too scared to eat junk food even when I'm binging??? I mean I'm not complaining but seriously wtf man. 😂
Also: cherry tomatoes are the supreme binge food. 25 cals per cup? Fuckkkk meeee upppppp baby. I'll take your entire stock.