numum
12.05.2022 - 1 week ago
dude your comment on that post abt ignoring medical issues sounds like a brain tumor
yeah <3
#okay so I’m going to ramble abt medical issues + fatphobia in the tags #so pls be warned and ignore this post if that could be upsetting to you #I don’t remember the specific post this is referring to #but i’m assuming i replied to some post abt how fatphobia leads to ppl ignoring their health issues to avoid the #condescending humiliating and flat out abusive manner we are treated #and i assume i mentioned the fact that i was diagnosed w/ something called a pseudotumor when i was ~13 #and as I got older and gained weight the doctors that i’d had when i was Not Fat started treating me increasingly horribly #n after a particularly horrible experience i just stopped going to the doctor entirely. #like i suffer from chronic headaches and may very well lose my eyesight bc of this condition #but it is no longer worth going to the doctor for me. like i’ve decided i’d rather just deal with it than deal with #being perscribed weight loss over and over for a condition i was diagnosed with when i was not fat #and being treated like i was stupid or being accused of uncooperativeness or lying bc i struggled to lose weight #it was surreal to literally witness how differently fat ppl are treated by medical professionals as someone who has not always been fat #like literally the same doctors i had throughout my childhood! and the difference was night and day. truly an enlightening experience #like when i was first diagnosed the cause was declared ‘ideopathic’ aka ‘we don’t know why this is happening to you it just is’ #and i was given medication #i had multiple lumbar punctures to decrease the swelling in my brain #and my doctors were all very kind and concerned and i felt safe #when i gained weight years after the initial diagnosis they stopped saying that the cause was ‘ideopathic’ and said i had the condition— #because i was fat #i was perscribed weight loss and spent months in the gym + dieting and i actually gained weight. likely due to stress + putting on muscle #so my childhood doctor who was once so kind and understanding accused me of lying about trying to lose weight #i was treated like i must have been too stupid to understand how serious my condition was so i just ‘didn’t put in the effort’ #they spoke to me like i was 5 yrs old and didn’t understand that brain swelling is bad and that i could lose my eyesight #bc they couldn’t comprehend me struggling to lose weight as being anything but stupidity + laziness #anyway my dr pointed to the door and said ‘if you arent going to cooperate then get out’ #so i did! and i never went back! teehee :) #and i will probably lose my eyesight eventually which is soooo cool but like. I’m not going through that again thanks #bc I’m a lazy fatty i guess lmao <333 #but anyway it’s technically not a tumor it just behaves like one. like i don’t have cancer
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