i got a soil pH meter today and i'm only partially joking when i say i've never felt more alive
soft, cuddly teddy bear boyfriend who is also a demon spawn from hell if you let him
in less exciting news i’ve also been working on a new sculpt for lee so i can fix some minor annoyances i’ve had with her original head + add more personalized detail to her textures. so unless i post some of my old gifsets her appearance is likely to change again, though hopefully not that much
fuck you. like genuinely truly fuck you. I have been trying so hard to keep my feelings on this verbal because I simply haven’t wanted to parse out all the reasons I resent you so fucking much right now but the way I am feeling right now is so unfair to me and others and it’s your fucking fault.
so fuck you. for being a hypocrite, for judging me and throwing anger at me so many times over for the things I didn’t do, while ignoring how you never matched what I DID do. And FUCK you for having the AUDACITY to turn around and suggest that I never gave you the same energy. Fuck you for demonizing me for all the same things you do, and refusing to see all that shit and more in yourself. Your whole personality is just you projecting on to every person you’ve ever hated and I’m just another in a list.
And tbh I’m glad! I’m so fucking angry but I am so glad that I never have to walk on eggshells around anyone for fear that the wrong reaction or reply will end in the silent treatment. I’m fucking elated that anytime any thing actually DOES become a problem, it’s an actual shock and not an eventuality I had already planned for. How fucking messed up is that? That any time we did anything with other people for more than 4 hours, I always knew something would be a problem with you and it always always was. Enough for you to be cold and mean but never enough to address it. And why would you? You apparently cared about me so little that you’d rather not work and improve through the problems because what does it fucking matter anyway???
But despite all that and despite how fucking nice it’s been not having to worry about you’re bullshit these past few months, you’re still finding ways to fuck me up. Because despite all that, I loved you so fucking much. I defended you endlessly literally up until YOU decided to fuck up our friendship, I defended you. All I ever wanted was your genuine happiness, not an illusion, a façade you didn’t even realize you were in. And I refused to let you lie to yourself about it without hearing the truth from me, someone you should KNOW believes so strongly in honesty and transparency. And I defended you for years against people who never really wanted you around because you always ended up being rude. I told them you were an acquired taste, you were just like that around new people, you just needed some time and you proved me wrong in the worst way over and over and I never fucking gave up on you until you gave up on me. You were my best fucking friend until the moment you weren’t even my friend anymore.
I loved you and trusted you and you shattered that trust hard enough to break my trust for everyone. Because now I find myself wishing for good faith from everyone but not trusting them to actually follow through. Knowing that I should knowing that I want to do fucking bad, that the only thing holding me back is knowing that years of trust could be fucked over so instantaneously and why shouldn’t I believe that everyone and anyone is capable of that? I can’t trust the people I love the most in this world because that was you once. And they don’t deserve that and I don’t deserve that and it is your fucking fault. So fuck you.
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happy 2 am!
stepped in cat puke and now im miserable tryna get back to bed lookin like that one picture of homer simpson >:(
-Pico
Me to my date: no men need to wear shorter shorts like show some fucking leg god🙄
I tell people I do art but really all I can draw is the same five specific men 💀💀
A glance into slasher fandom drama truly does make me appreciate arcana drama sometimes
gets my shawol card revoked for watching it’s okay to not be okay
note to self: ..... never prank serious bakuten lovers , itll cause hell