Favourite crime- JADON SANCHO
(Part 2 of traitor)
You loved him. With all of your heart and soul. You loved him then, when you thought he deserved nothing but to be loved wholeheartedly, when he didn't even love himself. And you loved him now when he left you with nothing but a never ending ache eating your entire being piece by piece.
There couldn't be anything more nonsensical than love.
It made absolutely zero sense.
Months had passed. You tried to move on, forget about everything that happened and find peace within new beginnings but nothing seemed erase his essence from your heart. He was just everywhere.
You couldn't even look at your favourite flowers without thinking about him.
You'd always loved flowers and he knew it so he always made sure he surprised you with pink lilies, your absolute favourite ones. He loved to see you smile.
"My flower is prettier than any flower there is to name." He told you one time. That's what he called you, his pretty little flower.
A flower that died, because he was pointlessly busy watering a dead one.
Despite being a wreck in private, you'd been thriving in your professional life. Your face was everywhere and you'd just got casted for a movie in your dream franchise.
and the worst part ?
The first person you thought of calling when you received one of the most awaited news of your life was, HIM.
You heard he was having a really good season when you talked to Reiss one day. You detached yourself from football completely, deleted all the memories you'd with him on your phone and threw his hoodie in the farthest untouched corner of your closet so you could stay away from his scent as much as you could.
You weren't afraid of seeing him again.
You were afraid of seeing him with her.
It was so funny cause after everything he'd done, hearing he was doing good brought an unknowing peace to your heart.
You were happy for him.
God, were you happy for him.
He didn't have a remarkable last season to say the least, you'd seen him sad too many times to count because things weren't working for him and it broke your heart.
You were happy he was finally living upto his potential.
Your best friends were there for you all along.
They didn't tell you they told you so but they wiped your tears and did everything to make sure you felt like yourself again. When you needed them the most.
To say they weren't happy with your relationship with Jadon, was an understatement.
But you being you, always defended him.
Because you knew him.
Because you thought you knew his heart.
It made you so sad to think how after everything he put you through, all the pain he gave you, He hadn't even apologised.
It had been 5 months since you saw his face.
Your mind completely shut down whenever you thought about how he looked the last time you saw him because all you could see was HER. Leaning into him, kissing him. Him kissing her back.
It drove you insane to the point you couldn't even sleep.
People always said no wound was too deep to not heal with time, people got over everything. That's how human beings were made. But now that you thought about it, time didn't heal any wounds. It just made you relative to the pain. To the point where you could think about it and not feel the way you did yesterday. The pain was still going to be there, always. But you just leaned to live with it.
Either way, time wasn't doing you any favours.
It just made everything worse.
You often thought if he'd been sleeping with her on the bed, you slept on once. If he was kissing her the same way as he kissed you.
He told you he loved you.
How could someone fall out of love so, so damn easily ?
You missed him.
God you missed him so much.
Specially the night when it was his birthday.
You remembered how he took you to his mum's house on his last birthday. How you were so nervous but he reassured you over and over that everyone was going to be smitten by you just like he was.
You wondered if he was going to take HER this time ?
You could still recall the stupid little question he threw at your face.
"Would you ever forgive me ?"
It made you laugh sometimes.
You were dying to hear his voice again.
And you know how they say when you want something, the entire universe conspires to help you get to it. And funnily the same thing happens when you're running away from something.
When your phone rang that night, you felt a sudden uneasiness in your soul. As if something stole the air inside of your lungs.
So when your fingers deliberately picked the unknown call, you knew who it was.
You were so sure, you could bet your life on it.
You put the phone to your ear listening to the silence on the other side.
"Y/N." Your heart skipped a beat when he called your name. It had been so long.
"Jadon." You spoke.
"Happy birthday." Your emotions were all over the place. Tears threatening to leave your eyes, if he spoke one more word.
"You remembered ?" He asked.
It's all i'd been thinking about for the past few days. You wanted to tell him.
"I remember everyone's birthdays, don't you remember ?" You questioned him wiping the lone tear that skipped your eye.
Please say you remember everything about us.
Your heart cried.
"Of course, I remember." His voice was quiet and low.
"Why did you.. call me ?" You wanted to know why he'd remembered you in the middle of the night.
"I... don't know. I wanted to hear your voice." and there he was playing with the strings of your messed up heart again.
"Do you know how much you're hurting me ?"
You sniffed. He was so wrong for filling your heart with false little hope.
"Do you know i don't deserve your tears ?" His soft question made you cry even more.
"I know. I don't think i'm going to be able to heal from this ever, Jadon." You cried to your nemesis.
"I'm sorry." He whispered. You didn't know if there was some meaning to the words this time, though if even they had they weren't going to make anything better for you.
"Was i not good enough to even leave before going back to her ?" You wanted him to feel your pain. To feel even 1% of what he put you through. The daggers his actions put in your heart. "You made me feel so small and worthless and stupid. Not even once did you think about the damage your actions were going to cause on my heart, you just went on with your life like you didn't even know me." Your throat was dry from all the crying you'd done. You were just so tired and hurt.
"and i've tried so hard but everything's just gettig worse, I can't erase the sight of her with you from my mind. Why did you have to break me this way, Jadon ?" You cried because that's all you could ever do. You knew you'd never be able to hate him. You'd never be able to yell at his face and scream why he did what he did. You were just too hurt to do that.
"I'm sorry for making you feel this way."
He could only say that.
But then again, he was never good with words. That wasn't his strongest point.
He left you without a word as well.
What were you suddenly expecting from him now ? So you just wiped your tears and took a deep breathe before speaking.
"Please don't come back to me, Jadon. For the love of God, please don't." You said before ending the call.
You were not fine.
You were far from fine.
But you knew you would be, one day.
And for that day to come, you had to let him go today.
(Thank you for liking the first part.)🥲💘