#mental breakdown Tumblr posts

  • chrisbpdshit
    27.05.2022 - 10 minutes ago

    no matter what I'm doing it's wrong

    no matter what I'm saying it's wrong

    like what the fuck I just wanna die

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  • thebirdandhersong
    27.05.2022 - 47 minutes ago

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    #at the point where i am mostly like. what is the point. WHAT IS THE POINT!!! #i'm doing terrible at my job and can hardly keep up with schoolwork #and all i want to do in the future (concretely know that i want to do) is write but WOW my writing needs so much work if i ever want to pu #publish #and the world is so large. so large and full of things to do and people and places and just so LARGE #and i am so small and silly and for twenty one rather slow and confused #i can hardly handle my own life. i can hardly even manage to do morning prayer every morning or stick to writing regularly #or even control things in my life like food and exercise which is like. basic self maintenance #i don't know what's going on half the time! i don't know! i don't know why i try so hard half the time either! #it is so SO hard to remain joyful and optimistic and hopeful and i am TRYING hard at it i really am #it is just so much of a struggle all the time and i don't know WHY i'm suddenly unable to function properly like a human being #it is so HARD to resist being unkind and selfish and self-serving and withdrawn and cold nowadays #i just want everything to be put on pause for a little while and that's basically impossible #sorry this is another rant i just have no idea what to do #and i am at the end of my tether once again. seriously this is the closest to rock bottom i've gotten since lockdown #if i were a drinking person. but i am not and thankfully have enough aversions to drink and other substances that i am firmly Not going #to go to extremes. but suffice it to say. multiple mental breakdowns this month multiple 3-5hour nights #many many days in a row of just. having zero energy zero motivation zero ability to do the things #i have a very high sense of Shame and Guilt and also Following Rules and so i wouldn't say i've lost the will to live #because even at the Worst of the worst times things like self harm and suicide have never been an option in my mind #but i am as close to it as i can be i guess. i am just SO tired and very scared #like. God help me. what is my worth if i can't write good stories? what is my worth if i can't be loving and kind and gentle 100% of the ti #time? what is my worth if i can't put 200% into everything and do ALL the things for everyone? what is my worth if i'm not doing My Best? #why can't i just be Normal and Well Adjusted and have SOME of the things figured out for once?? #i can't even EAT PROPERLY how can i enter the workforce or raise a family?
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  • oracleofselfies
    27.05.2022 - 1 hour ago

    The ex (dumped me a little over a year ago, unexpectedly triggering a mental breakdown, now we’re friends and I’ve worked on my mental health a lot) wants to know if I’m down to hook up.

    Like, excuse me sir?

    Do you genuinely believe that, after working so hard to build my self esteem, resilience, and dignity

    after months in therapy, having the same conversation about why can’t I move on, if I could erase my feelings for him I would, etcetcetc

    And thousands of baby steps to fight the uphill battle of getting the fu k over you,

    You really think I’m gonna let you use my body for sex?

    Hard. Fucking. Pass.

    #my life #mental health m #the breakdown was cuz I was already depressed and being dumped free first time ever confirmed that o was unlovable in my perspective at the #time #if you were curious #even if the sex was good and it’s been a while since I had … yknow…sex
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  • sadblog310
    27.05.2022 - 1 hour ago

    Absent of life, without any value.

    The desire of disappearing follows me so much.

    #tw depressing thoughts #mental breakdown#depressing shit #tw depressing stuff #tw self destruction #mental disorder #tw sucidal ideation #tw sui ideation #suicidal thoughts#tw suicide#suicide#suicidal #tw sui implied #suicudal
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  • deathstalkersdemise
    27.05.2022 - 2 hours ago

    Me, when no one talks to me for one (1) day, and my friends aren't online, and even the mutuals don't post anything on Tumblr dot com:

    #I'm so fucking lonely hahaha #not funny #fuck my life #mental breakdown acquired #also me: fuck I hate talking #bro just shut yo ass up k #every day I wake up *sob* and I have literally nothing to do wtf #personal
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  • kraniumet
    27.05.2022 - 2 hours ago

    literally most special beloved contender for song that will finally drive me to make a gintama amv don’t look at me don’t talk to me etc

    #i mean the no.1 contender is clearly #old black hole by dr dog 😜 #(really a legacy song btw i remember having this on an 8tracks dresden marcone list alongside #dimitri mendeleev by astronautalis and love -> building on fire. and i think the murdoc plastic beach mental breakdown mix)
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  • chrisbpdshit
    27.05.2022 - 5 hours ago

    i feel shitty when my friend tells me that she feels bad bcs I also feel bad and I don't know how to help her like I feel like I'm just annoying and that its not helping and I hate myself for that bcs idfk what to do and it's always when I also feel worse and like after trying to reply to her messages like "I feel like everyone else is moving forward and I'm just staying at the same point" I feel even worse bcs I feel like im a horrible friend bcs I can't help her bcs of feeling bad by myself

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  • jis2ng
    27.05.2022 - 5 hours ago

    ijen neol chatgo jjikge dwaetji machimpyo..... mam pyeonhi dashi baeteo andoye HANSUM.....

    #has anyone posted you. on here. if not i willl #had a mental breakdown over it just now I NEED CHAN TO KNOW HOW MUCH THIS SONG MEANS TOOO MEEEE....
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  • phoebeprufrock
    27.05.2022 - 6 hours ago

    Sun’s out, work is slow, i have no drama, my acne’s clearing out, I made a new friend, i’m visiting my grandma over the weekend, I have 3-days work week coming up on monday, I’m seeing MCR next weekend... Life feels pretty damn good right now

    #personal #I don’t usually share personal stuff on here but I made a New Years resolution to be more appreciative of the good things in my life #not being depressed is fucking wild. who knew life could be this good!!! #feels like yesterday that I was depressed and not leaving my bed and barely graduating or having a mental breakdown over work #and look at me now!!!! fucking thriving #I’m really proud of myself 💕
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  • sheriffspookypants
    27.05.2022 - 12 hours ago

    Starfleet, choose your division!

    #Star Trek #star trek strange new worlds #star trek memes #idk why i made this #brain rot I guess #anxiety attack command division #mental breakdown science division #sleep deprived and under appreciated operations division
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  • haleigh-sloth
    27.05.2022 - 14 hours ago

    Really eager to see what Touya and Shigaraki are like when they have some semblance of control over their emotional reactions to things.

    Really eager to see what they’re like when they step into their age. I feel like we’ll see a little bit of the newfound maturity at the end because receiving help, care, acceptance, love, all that jazz some relieve some of that weight. But also, they both have very little capability of regulating their emotions and haven’t had that capability for, well, their entire lives lol

    Having disastrous emotional breakdowns isn’t gonna cut it anymore :/

    #you know their way of ‘regulating’ is to have catastrophic mental and emotional breakdowns on screen #it’s effective for a bit but after a while it doesn’t work anymore :/ #lol#bnha #boku no hero academia #shigaraki tomura#todoroki touya#shimura tenko#Dabi
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  • dead-lesbians
    27.05.2022 - 15 hours ago

    The frustration of trying to explain to neurotypicals that I literally can’t work a normal job because of my autism is so fucking annoying.

    Me: I can’t work as a cashier or a waitrer because the entire point of my disability is that I severely struggle with the unexpected

    Every neurotypical ever: you just need confidence!!! :)))

    THATS NOT HOW IT FUCKING WOORKSS

    #USGEI ARGH#LIKE #I have meltdowns at the smallest change and have been for years #I CANT get used to it! #look I’d be willing to be a cashier at a small place that doesn’t get to busy #that would be fine #but those places are never hiring! #this was the one thing that made me have no many breakdowns #like getting a job is fucking scary and I’m not mentally ready for one #I need a LOT of guidance on things and need to be told multiple times exactly how to do something #and if someone shows the hint of anger I get extremely upset #but they don’t understand it because they don’t deal with what I deal #and then when I say ‘I’m not ready for a job’ they say collage! I CANT GO TO COLLAGE #you do NOT get the support you get in secondary and primary school #and I BAREKY made it through with support #do you think I’ll be able to fucking do collage??? #also I would rather die than go back to school it was hell #I hate living in this like…place of being autstic but not autstic enough to everyone because I can talk and shit #also my family loves to go on about how I can do things I like but??? #the things I like are usualy planned out extremely well #that or I have a ‘safety blanket’ like my friends or family that I can lean on when I’m scared #like yeah I can do those things well! they aren’t a fucking job where a big part of it is that you can not prepare #you can’t prepare for interactions with the public #you can’t prepare for where you will be needed #and I can’t do that! #maybe if I can get that disability living allowance they will get of my back rip
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  • palaedin
    27.05.2022 - 15 hours ago
    and remember, i’m on your side

    " ‏‏‎ ‎yeah . ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ yeah ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎i ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎know . ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎thanks , ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎dude . ‏‏‎ ‎" ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎his ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎face ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎flushed . ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎he ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎felt ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎embarrassed , ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎but ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎more ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎than ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎that ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎he ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎felt ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎a ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎powerful ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎urge ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎to ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎cry . ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎

    ‎" ‏‏‎ ‎i'm ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎sorry ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎about ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎earlier . ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎i ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎don't ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎know ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎why ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎i ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎said ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎that . ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎i ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎don't ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎know ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎why ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎i ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎say ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎a‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎lot‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎of‏‏‎ ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎things ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎lately ‏‏‎. ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎i ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎dont ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎know ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎... ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎it's ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎just ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎that‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎i‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎cant‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎stop‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎thinking‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎about ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎it ‏‏‎. ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎about‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎everything . ‏‏‎ ‎" ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎

    he ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎exhaled‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎deeply , ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎he ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎put ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎his ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎hands ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎up ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎to ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎cover ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎his ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎face .‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎"‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎you‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎know‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎what‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎i‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎mean ?‏‏‎ ‎ "‏ ‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎/‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎@fireballhim

    #fireballhim #mike having a mental breakdown rn fr #tbt
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  • serialkidnapper
    27.05.2022 - 16 hours ago

    I walked to the river again without a cane today, and I’m proud…but wow that hurts!

    #… #trying to take my mind off of applying for jobs and interviews #I don’t like how they’re all hiring rn so they call back so fast and it gets piled up #and I see doctors I’m worried about in a few days and on the brink of a mental breakdown #I took nice photos
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  • laserbrains
    27.05.2022 - 17 hours ago

    i’m not ready

    #dahlia.txt #i’m in the middle of having a mini mental breakdown and it decides to drop NOW???????? #FUCK!!!!!!
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  • anxiety-and-fandoms
    27.05.2022 - 17 hours ago

    What happens when you find a music program whilst recovering from a mental breakdown? Whatever this is, apparently!

    #moosic #the shapeshifter speaks #mental breakdown tw #I’m more-or-less fine now don’t worry!!
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  • pizzapizzadickz
    27.05.2022 - 18 hours ago

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    #diary#personal#self harm #i was talking to a friend about school/high school n shit and it sorta reminded me about something i used to do. #i was very much not doing well in highschool. so much so i really stuggled to do homework or even brush my teeth. #but i was a straight a student. and i couldnt let myself fall below that. so i actually used to self harm as punushment - #in order to get myself to do stuff. #this is sorta why i hate dentists always hounding me to brush more often or that i shouldve #because back then dude the only way i wouldve been able to is by self harming...and even then who knows what id do #i just wish dentists were a bit more gentle about these things. because if my options are have a mental break down and brush my teeth or no #imma pick the no mental breakdowns #like. im dangerous and unhinged to myself when im like that. its terrfying. im certainly not the same person when im not #so yeah
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  • a-poets-muse
    27.05.2022 - 18 hours ago

    Are you still real

    When everything is fake

    Feet upon solid ground

    Can shift at any second

    Characters on screen

    Carry more

    Than those out my window

    How does one understand a world

    That never understood them

    When life is pain

    But it’s not real

    When your mind swims

    In a sandstorm

    How can you tell what’s reality

    Why can you figure it out

    But not me

    When illness affects me more

    Than anything life has ever given

    How do I manage a world

    When everything I’ve witnessed

    Happened outside of it

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