#not madd Tumblr posts

I hope everyone with a para that gives them gender envy has a great day

I’m so glad Spy x Family is popular because my best friend got me to pick it up right around vol 3’s release and there was like no fan content anywhere so THANK YOU

me: *is trying to daydream less*

also me: i wanna eat because i'm bored

my eating issues:

another thing that bugs me is my brain tricking me that my mental problems are not real like i would literally have a panick attack and my brain would be like "stop being dramatic"

The thing about having MaDD is that I blame 80% of my social awkwardness and isolation on it when I know that daydreaming is a coping mechanism for that

so who came first the chiken or the egg ?

the fact that i will never belong to a friend group like that makes me wanna really sad

and i wonder why i have madd

Before the new chapter of my life begins,I decided to try and heal myself.I haven’t reached the last point yet.Neither have I managed to feel emotions and understand the purpose of life.

But the chapter will start soon.Soon as in within a week from today.

I have two options.

One)Stay in my own safe place that I have built and get organized(physically,declutter,clean)

Two)Go and meet the people I said a goodbye to in order to heal mentally and emotionally and get organized(mentally by realizing they don’t exactly hate me)

WHAT SHOULD I DO?

Hello, I’m relatively new to the maladaptive daydreaming community, if you don’t mind me asking, what’s a para? 😅

Para is a term use by the maladaptive and immersive daydreaming communities to refer to a character within a daydream

I remember that you had some questions about being a system yourself and this video on emotional amnesia by the rings system might help (or for any other people questioning the same thing) as a system I can’t speak for anyone else but I’ll talk about my experience in another ask 1/2

2/2 so I had a para who I always joked about “he’s a parame but like Not, like me but Not Me” and whenever I daydreamed I would talk aloud to myself which is where the experiences of being a system and daydreaming would overlap and his experiences and thoughts were kind of like a proxy for the body’s traumas and whenever he fronts the paracosm was a way to relive the trauma over and over again. Ok rip going to have to send more asks I’m bad at this stuff

3/2 now we’re in god please tumblr don’t fuck up these messages terribly sorry if this is confusing. Whenever the body enacted his movements and he was talking through it (switching) he would encourage really negative thoughts similar to maladaptive post-traumatic thoughts (I’m going to condense that cause Tumblr is annoying trauma disorders are v comorbid so research is important for those too) AND the most important part was the detachment to self and identity confusion. More asks to come 😔

4/2 basically I would literally feel like that applied to my situation despite but only after the daydreaming stopped and LOTS of introspection. Which is where that amnesia comes in and how his role as an alter was to voice self destructive thoughts. Sucks that I can’t link the video. There are some theories proposing that MADD is a dissociative disorder and I don’t know how much that fits into this. Ok one more ask

5/2 Some disclaimers: I am self dx’d cause I’m trans and a poc and if anyones considering this please go read the research, books for clinicians and patients and the DSM of seeking dx. Also for what I’ve seen it’s a bit rarer to have an Introject created from my favourite shows and stuff to act like this and I can’t rlly tell if that’s bc of MADD or not

Whoa this was a lot. I did used to question if I was a system, but now I'm 98% sure I'm not. But my partner, who is an alter, has had similar experiences to you I think

I found 2 videos about emotional amnesia from the rings system so hopefully you mean one of them. I'm not able to watch them rn but I'll put them here to remind myself. The one about depersonalization looks interesting because I struggle with that sometimes

But thank you for sharing and I hope this is able to help some others!

tumblr is going to nuke the quality but here’s profiles of my fursona/oc (left) with another oc (right) from the same universe

shes not a boot she got the hat at an abandoned aircraft base

I finally made art for Or

Anyone have short lived paracosms?? Like you’ll be interested in it A LOT but then it only lasts about a few weeks and you just move on back to your main one(s)

Context: Maddy being mad about more people knowing that she’s officially 30 years old and is lying about being 23.

I had this idea back when someone managed to get scans and translations of one of the EXE info books and confirmed this about Maddy’s age. Same book also confirms that Mr. Match and Nenji (a.k.a. ... Fyrefox :P ) are also 30! :>

every single one of my paras when i wake up, ready to traumatize them more than they already are:

After a whiplash filled adventure of trying to figure out what primpara means - I realized I may want to introduce the community to the terms insoruced and outsourced.

The soulbonding community has used these terms for decades but they may be useful to daydreamers. Insourced means from an original creation (i.e. not a preexisting character), and outsourced means coming from a separate media and typically a pteexisting character.

(If this is outside your comfort zone, my apologies, just ignore it if that's the case lol)

Just wanted to pop in and say that I genuinely love following your blog. Especially your recent reblogs about the emotional abuse and grooming towards abuse that children face as well as stuff about MaDD that has really gotten me more educated on the subject as well as encouraged me to seek out an actual psychologist. I know this is super irrelevant from a complete stranger but I just really wanted to thank you and let you know that it helps quite a lot by just reblogging this stuff because otherwise, I really don't know where to start on my own :]

Aw thank you! I’m glad you like my blog :] also your message is not irrelevant! It’s very helpful knowing that the stuff I reblog is getting more people to look into stuff and be a little more knowledgeable. I send you the best of luck and good vibes in finding a psychologist. 🍀💖🌈

my therapist: i think you should try controlling your daydreams

me being a daydreamer for 16+ years:

Dumbass