Oof sketching blorbos being dramatic for the sake of it <3
Oof sketching blorbos being dramatic for the sake of it <3
Andrew (future lawyer): This is the most suspicious man I’ve ever met. I should kill him to keep Kevin safe.
Andrew’s dick: Counter argument—look at how pretty he is.
Andrew (future lawyer): Solid rebuttal, I gotta say. Solid rebuttal.
Inspired by this post by @i-want-delfeur
it turns out sometimes you just need to listen to crowded house
I'm sure ppl have said this before but with go s2 and the sandman series coming up I'm loving that we can all hope for some gaiman with some gay men:)
Bands & Monsters! ☠️🤘🏼
Mötley Crüe + Demons! 👹
“You call it demonic because you hear screaming, I call it life saving because I hear the meaning.”
This moment is so fucking insane like. Andrew CHILL OMFGGG
Autistic Andrew getting a sensory swing because he saw it on tiktok and entering into Cocoon Mode™ with noise cancelling headphones and a book whenever life gets too much
damn. that aurora borealis really do be crushing mankind
Thanks to @the-iron-mage for allowing me ti talk endlessly about *drumrolllllllllll*
Knife Fight by Lemon Demon!
This is sort of a 'joke' song, but that doesn't make it any less if a banger. It's literally about two guys having a knife fight, and then they see the dangers of that so, instead they decide to have a tickle fight.
My favorite line would either be "🎶 I'm a crazyyyyy sonofabitch! 🎶" or, at the very end "that was fun. where's my knife?"
I enjoy listening to this song because it starts quiet, then smacks you in the face with a loud drum and guitar combo. It's one if my go-to songs when I feel like flailing my around like an idiot, and I just feel free.
the one and only time i did the “i’m in unrequited gay love w my best friend” stereotype was with secondary characters in an original story i began as a kid and looking back i think i was just projecting
ok this movie is so beautiful with all the irish folklore etc AND it has ginger/blond which… i just see andreil
now imagine andreil as WOLFS and fighting oppressive christians
imagine nathan as the lord protector (i guess ichirou too, he already has the whole lord thing going on)! he caught mary and wants to kill the wolfwalkers ahhh so much potential for a good plot
imagine andrew brushing neil's hair imagine they playing together in an autumnal forest surrounded by magic and other wolves THE TENDERNESS THE COTTAGECORE
way cooler with fem!andreil
also: running with the wolves by aurora
i've seen people say aaron, nicky, and kevin were just bystanders during neil's terrible first time at columbia, but i think tf not. kevin, maybe. but aaron, and especially nicky?? nah. they're both directly complicit in it.
remember how once neil realized he'd been drugged and tried to stand up, each of the cousins took turns in either roughing neil up or restraining him so he'd have an even harder time trying to fight back or escape? yeah. so look me in the eye and tell me again that andrew was the sole perpetrator that night whereas the others, while in on it, were no worse than innocent onlookers. because that's not what happened. at all. they wanted neil to feel trapped and helpless, that's why they all attacked or cornered him like that.
if you think otherwise, then go reread the books or at least tfc because i just did and i remember exactly how things went down at eden's. aside from kevin who wasn't mentioned anymore after neil started feeling the efffects of the drugs, none of the rest of andrew's lot were the least bit innocent. they all contributed to the awfulness neil went through that night (and even on to the next day when he woke up in the arms of a creeper!!).
andrew might be the one calling the shots but his brother and cousin were accessory to the noncon drugging while they're all (sans kevin) directly responsible for the physical assault. (nicky taking advantage of the already shitty situation to be even more of a fucking creep to neil, not only once but two damn times, is a separate crime/offense probably—as he did that all on his own).
also andrew didn't have that much of a control over the situation either. he merely believed he did but that's not the case at all, as proven by nicky SA'ing neil (without andrew's knowledge) and neil paying someone to knock him out (which andrew probably didn't quite expect to happen). if you think that andrew's pulling ALL the strings while the others were just mindless puppets or something, i've got some bad news for you. 😬
i just wish people would stop downplaying the others' roles in neil's dreadful experience that night, while simultaneously making andrew out to be the sole bad guy. yall, they all did cruel things to neil that time. (yes, even kevin who's possibly the one bystander in that situation. but since i don't doubt that he's in on the whole scheme too, i'm not cutting him any slack either.) you're fooling yourself if you think andrew was the lone culprit/offender in the whole thing. the only innocent person that night was neil, that's it. pass it on.
OHHHH the “riko and kevin used to drug me” and “yeah remember when you drugged me” reveal was SoOoo good!!!! But also when Neil points out that Andrew never left a mark?!!!!! After looking at all the marks terrible ppl left on Neil?? The symbolism. What was Andrew thinking? Any smidge of guilt? I feel like that near kiss after this discussion is going to tress Andrew out and make him feel even closer to riko in behavior..Ahhh you’re just too good and do the angst/consequences so well
Tbh the way I imagined it Andrew wasn’t really feeling guilt; he was processing (not for the first time) the strangeness of Neil’s trust in him. In the beginning, it was safer for Neil to assume Andrew was like his other abusers and take steps to protect himself. Andrew wasn’t lying when he told Neil that he wasn’t going to hurt him again, but he understood why Neil didn’t believe him and he didn’t really expect Neil to ever change his mind.
Somewhere along the way, though, Neil sorted through his trauma and fear and baggage enough to see Andrew for who he actually is. Even if Andrew hurt him in similar ways to Riko, Neil knows that Andrew isn’t like Riko at all. He trusts Andrew enough to literally and figuratively bare his throat to him, which is a big deal given what Neil’s been through.
(Andrew still thinks he needs to keep his distance if he wants to avoid shattering that trust. The almost-kiss was a very close call.)
talked about the beatles in my autism assessment kills self
Um I was trying to write idk if it counts as a headcannon or just a thought I’m a little… inebriated and rambled but the thought is near the beginning and then you can stop reading if you want
Okay so I just got home from a beach bunny concert (which I totally thought I was going to a bad bunny concert until an embarrassingly close time to the concert sorry I have dyslexia) anyways so I was thinking because the main person (I think her name is lili or lily but I’m not sure how to spell it and don’t even ask for last names) wore bunny ears and idk if this has been done and if it has please point it out but aftg band au where Neil wears bunny ears on stage. This might be a dumb idea I did have a beer or so and I don’t really drink (because I HATE beer but my friend was like I am not dealing with you tequila drunk which like fair lmao I’m not drunk but I did just DoorDash tacos so like you make whatever call you want) but I think it’s be really fun and fresh. Also I was in the age range but like the TOP of the age range and uh my friend is only like a year older than me but my acquaintances I was with were like idk 6, 7 years older than me? They were all talking about the housing market and their searches for houses and I was like aha I will just drink this beer and cry because I have at least 10 more years of school (not that I won’t be working on my career and have a good job but currently I sell books so) anyways they did not fit the demographic also they did not research the vibe they were like oh general concert I’ll wear jeans and a basic tank top and vans and like then there was me in pastel green pants and a sheer butterfly shirt and even I didn’t fully fit the vibe (I didn’t have time to prepare OKAY?!) anyways no one approached them to ask questions that’s for sure (tho people kept asking me things like oh are you going to get merch and do you know where the line starts and all that and like idk this should all be in the tags hold on
guys 😭😭😭😭😭 i need this desperately 😭😭 do i even have to say who this reminds me of oh my god 😭😭😭
she lemon on my demon til i rock out in the dinosaurchestra
What Beautiful Luck To Call Him Mine.
wake up Anderperry nation your beloveds are feeling joyful and euphoric!!! wake up!!!! hey!!!!!!
the funny thing about live blogging is i actually do it to my friend all the time
Oh heck, words are happening.
He wakes with a memory of the summer scent of gorse flower, like coconut on sea-salt breeze, his mind’s eye filled with the giddy blaze of sea thrift and red campion. The steel blue and turmeric yellow of lichen on dusky rocks. Grassy slopes falling into collapsing waves, dragging sand and dirt with them. The noise of white cotton sheets flapping wild on a rope line, anchored by sentinel pegs.
“Just a memory”, he thinks. Of where, or when, he can’t recall.
The memory lingers, despite everything that occurs that day. The briefing. The running. The shooting, and inverting, and driving, and inverting again and yes, even after that. The remembrance of salt air and pink blossoms against lead-blue seascapes.
It lingers even after everything goes dark.