#personal Tumblr posts

Hi, I have a lot of new followers! I am Anna/Nara. I like to draw and sometimes I write stuff and post it on Ao3! My blog is more of an everything and anything kind of space but right now I’m into Elden Ring so there is a lot of that.

I really like OC x Canon shipping, so a lot of my art is just me drawing an OC i made with my current fixation character. Right now I am mostly into drawing my Tarnished OC with Gideon Ofnir. I hope that is okay with yall!

i was the most interesting person at the mountain goats bc i have the 21+ wristband AND the Xs of shame

When will my interests return from the war

has anyone redrawn that bill gates looking guy with a coke bottle flying directly at him, with a Pokemon staring at a Feather Ball

Personal stuff and mental health stuff under the cut.

For the last few months it's been really obvious things haven't been going great with my girlfriend. We have an amazing time together but then she'll suddenly lapse into these long silences, obviously grumpy at me and I'll just know I've said something wrong but can't for the life of me figure out what and she wouldn't tell me. Gradually she's been asking for more time apart, mentioned that she might move in with her folks for a couple of weeks (we don't live together, but within walking distance of each other), and referenced talking to others about what's bothering her rather than talking to me. She's also yet to introduce me to her parents after 2 years of us being together.

I was 90% sure she was going to dump me, and was caught between definitely not wanting that to happen and wondering if it would be a relief if she did because then I could stop second guessing everything I said.

Then yesterday she made an overtly rude comment, immediately apologised, and then explained that she's been diagnosed with depression, and it reframed the last few months immediately.

Depression is a bitch. It doesn't just make you sad. It almost makes you irritable and anybody expressing any positive comments around you can feel like they're rubbing their lives in your face. She's always been keen on running but has lost any joy in it recently while I've been running a lot, which feels like an oblique fuck you. Sometimes I am a bit thoughtless and say the wrong thing, and that digs a lot harder when she's already in a bad place.

And then she feels worse when she snaps at me because she doesn't want me associating time with her with pain, so the offer to move in with her folks for a couple of weeks was an effort to spare me.

I let her know that from my perspective, most of the time I have a good time with her. I offered for us to take a break if she thought it might help.

We're still together. There's going to be other moments like this while she figures out her path to recovery, but I love her and after we'd talked through everything we spent a long time just cuddling. If you've read this far and anything in it chimes with you, I'm begging you to be honest with the people you care about. Crushing down your reactions for the sake of not inconveniencing anybody will end up, ironically, causing more pain.

Not me sitting down to work on chapter 14, only to end up writing the first part of a Lysa APWH prequel

“queercoding” shut up it’s called gaybaiting 

My cute little self is far too stressed for this. I need Starbucks and cuddles right now

How y'all doing anyways two nights ago I had a dream where I ate this really amazing garlic bread (other things happened they're not important) and I haven't been able to think on anything else since

REAL MEN search CAVE on pinterest.

Them: Hey, how are you doing?

Me: Gripped with the burning awareness that my time on this earth is limited and my existence is ultimately meaningless

Them:

Me:

Them:

Me: ....good. Im doing good and u

Being autistic means I feel my emotions so strongly. Good and bad. I feel a black hole inside my tummy. My throat is tightening. I feel frantic. I want the heartache to stop.

too fixated on the idea of sad, haunted, beautiful women to sleep

E u p h o r i a (2)

So this one I’d put to music if I could write up some good music. A lot has happened in the last couple of months but I’m in counseling and working through…everything. The BIG thing is only one part of it all. Working title is “I’m Doing Better”

Blue lights

Dance across my ceiling

A million thoughts

Run through my head

Pixie cuts and hippie chicks

Fill my DMs

My world’s been crumbling lately / and everything’s been shit / and as the planet warms and oceans rise the world is going to hell / but at least I’m doing better

I cry

Every night

I drive

For hours to the shore

I dip my toes in

But I don’t think about walking out

My world’s been crumbling lately / and everything’s been shit / and as the planet warms and oceans rise the world is going to hell / but at least I’m doing better

Intrusive thoughts

Are laced with happy ones

I remember

Good things with the bad

But today

Tomorrow. And for as long as I’m ok

The good outweighs the bad

My world’s been crumbling lately / and everything’s been shit / and as the planet warms and oceans rise the world is going to hell / but at least I’m doing better

At least I’m doing better

Alaska problems

ppl keep suggesting that i open my window when i say my room is hot 😭 i’m not stupid omg it is open and has been for a long time. idk why it’s still hot in here

here’s my interpretation of scarf kid!! or clementine “clem” berkeley, as i’ve decided to name xem

also! some Oc Fun Facts™️ abt clem!

- is nonbinary, is demirose (demiromantic + demisexual, for those who don’t know!), and is generally fine with most pronouns, but primarily use they/them/their and xe/xem/xyr

- is honestly pretty smart but is only really aware of what’s going on around xem maybe 25% of the time

- is the Artist In The Class™️ and usually sit in the back of the class drawing stuff in their sketchbooks. they usually get pretty good grades through, even if their papers are sometimes covered in doodles (ms. globular’s learned to look past it ojdikdfsjkflcjdsl)

- used to be mildly fascinated by ghosts...until ghosts became a regular part of their reality. now xe’s Terrified of them. whenever there’s a ghost attack going on, they’re almost always the first person out the door bc Fuck That

- doesn’t really have a strong opinion on pac n cyli n spiral aside from “thank pong there’s Someone around who deals with ghosts so i won’t have to”

- is best friends with sherry (and may or may not have a crush on her that may or may not be requited on sherry’s end)

- usually wears the scarf around xyr mouth to cover up a birthmark on xyr face (as seen below). they’re not like ashamed of it or whatever, but ppl staring at it got Real annoying after a while

- also the pajama pants they’re wearing are based on an actual pair of pajama pants i have but with pacman sprites instead of peace signs

- also also Yes those are rainbow ugg boots (idc what anyone says, those boots might be kinda ugly but they are Comfy n that’s all that matters imo)

and fuck you in particular