growing up in italy in the 30s and being gay is fucking terrifying.
i know it’s just stupid pseudomemories, but sometimes it’s still hard to come to terms with the fact that i’m gay.
i have a boyfriend. i love him a lot. why is it that people think that’s so wrong, to the point where it’s made me insecure?
i don’t understand.
i really don’t.
I just found out I’m a system, and it kind of stresses me out because I don’t know what to believe. Some of us believe it’s all pseudomemories, something well documented with alters, but some of us believe in past lives, and regardless of that EVERYONE wants to find sourcemates, and some of us actually have our own kinlist which is a whole other slice of pie to deal with. But even ignoring the problems of the whole system, I miss my family so much. Not the system’s family, MY family. And if that’s all pseudomemories, then why do they have to come with so much longing? It’s not fair.
How about instead of splitting more traumatized bitches for once we split someone who likes doing dishes
“But you love eggs! Why won’t you eat your breakfast?”
“How come you don’t dye any of your eggs red?”
My memories:
What I say:
“I’m just not hungry.”
“I just don’t like the color red.”
-Bad❤️ and Skeppy💎
I’m genuinely surprised Thor hasn’t listened to Thunderstruck yet.
—Banner
does anyone know how to deal with pseudomemories that are just fucking haunting you for no reason? the memory didnt even happen canonically in my source its just something the brain decided to give me. is there any way to make it go away or stop being as bad?
happy 4/13 we didn’t prep any art so have some edits I did of myself and how i remember my friends a bit ago
-dave
ALASTOR FROM HAZBIN HOTEL AND I ARE THE SAME. NO I WILL NOT GIVE CONTEXT
Someone needs to get it through my head I don't have to be the same as my source character. I couldn't even if I tried, I can't pull off the accent, I can't look anything like I do or really dress like I did, I can't do the drugs, I can't make my money in the same ways I used to (which is....both a blessing and a curse, really). Like fuck I even feel guilty for trying to be nice to people here cause it feels like I'm betraying myself somehow. I'm not a nice person. I don't care about things like politics or human rights or anything outside of my own little sphere of experiences.
I'm really worried what it's gonna be like when the show actually airs, I've had so long to fill in the blanks on my own. What if it turns out things weren't actually as bad as I remember them? What if my family's actually perfectly nice and accepting of me? What if I've exaggerated everything with Mr. V to the point where none of it will make sense when we actually get to that point in the plot?
I'm not saying he ever treated me well, that much we do know, but there's...levels of all the depravity that might not be supported by anything canonical. And it shouldn't matter, I wouldn't be the first canon-divergent fictive here, but I keep feeling like it's all in my head and I've just made it all much more dramatic than it needs to be to have an excuse for being a fucking trainwreck masquerading as a person.
Bro I’m lowkey feeling super alone.
I’m tempted to video call 🪔 right now and watch movies with me.
Introjects are alters in a system developed from an outside source.
These alters can be labelled as factives, fictives & fogtives
Factives - an alter developed off of a real person / source (i.e. a celebrity)
Fictives - an alter developed off of a fictional person / source (i.e. a movie character / videogame character)
Fogtives - an alter almost a factive but that doesn't feel as if that fits them properly (i.e. they feel a mix between a fictive / factive etc)
Introjects do not have to identify as their source, they can and they cannot. Introjects also must not be treated like their source as they aren't their source.
Another thing to keep in mind is that systems that are introject heavy are not roleplaying. Do not fakeclaim system just because they have introjects.
Introjects also may or may not remember things from their source these memories are called pseudomemories, these memories did not happen to the body but it happened in the alters source and this is valid.
To all introjects out there just know that you are valid as heck and we love all of you<3
i keep thinking about how leon and rachel met and i wanted to draw it out but i don't think i have the energy so i'll just make this post.
i think rachel was a TA for a class that leon ditched archaeology 101 for because he thought he was above that level already. but he didn't just infiltrate the class like a normal person, he like...hid in the back of the room with his little notebook trying to dodge the professor's gaze. so rachel just found him crouching under an empty desk and thought wow! this is the weirdest underclassman i've ever seen! then he started talking about azran shit and she thought he was legitimately insane. love wins.
(yes he failed archaeology 101)
This week was a little intense, we saw Joywave live for the first time in a few years which was cool, I thought it would mess with Damien but he's totally fine and I'm all sorts of screwed up.
Seeing what I guess could be called my "source" kinda made me realize that holy shit this is real i really am just some bastardization of a tangible living breathing whole ass other human
I never really thought of that, immediately upon being able to communicate with the system I focused on soothing Damien and working with him on his deeply ingrained self hatred and shame but I guess I never fully conceptualized or even realized what it was that he was actually upset about
I always think I've been around for awhile but our partner keeps reminding me I've only been here since like 2020, and in that time I don't think I've had to deal with anything tougher than mild body dysmorphia(?) and intrusive pseudomemories
I want to talk to other introjects and try to process how I should be approaching this all, I feel like its both healthy and very unhealthy to pretend that I have no connection to my source but like :') ngl i kind of closely identify with the music and shit
how do introjects who actually like their source live day to day, i just want to talk about dumb pseudomemories and how some things mean so much to me but I feel like a big phony
Boundaries:
- Please do not shorten my name to Mike. -
Feel free to send in asks about practically anything! I absolutely love answering questions about my past life. Just keep in mind that I am 16, so please do not be weird.
If you are a William kinnie: Get out. Leave. I do not want you here. Note for all the Vincent/Fanon Purple Guy kinnies out there: you are still very much welcome here feel free to interact!
to all of the other FNAF kinnies: PLEASE do interact! I would love to talk to you guys, whether we're canonmates or not! Doubles are very welcome here as well!
Memory Basics:
I was born in December 1967. Evan Afton, AKA the Crying Child from FNAF 4, was born in January 1975. Elizabeth Afton was adopted, but I do not remember when. She was only here for about 2 years before she got killed by the Circus Baby animatronic, and then mom left shortly after.
I was the protagonist of FNAF 1, 2, 3, 5, and 6. During the events of 6 I lived with Henry Emily, aka my real dad, because unlike my biological father he actually cared about me.
And finally, I will be posting memories, general kin-related life stuff, and answers to as many asks as I can manage. See you all when the smoke clears. -Michael Afton
hey yall we need help p badly. uhh so our last therapy session one of our traumaholders shared some of his pseudomemories with our therapist and it didn't go well. how should we be handling this? should we share pseudomemories? we feel super hopeless and helpless rn.
watching vods from my source and thinking about how handsome I am, call that self love baby
- jack
new sysmates show up and we have a team hussle to figure out which one of these bitches started thinking too hard
despite pseudomemories. being the only memories in my brain mostly. do not worry if i mention stuff like people dying! that does not hold weight in my mind! adam is a bastard and deserved it! okay bye
